Russia -- Social life and customs -- 1533-1917 -- Fiction
“Yes; but that does not last. Later they serve to shed light upon
life, for they lead one to the edge of the abyss whence there is no
return--then gently force one to turn once more and look upon life. Thus
they seem to challenge one’s tried faculties in order that the latter
may be prevented from sinking wholly into inertia.”
“And to think, also, that one should be disturbed by phantoms at
all!” she lamented. “When all is bright, one’s life suddenly becomes
overshadowed with some sinister influence. Is there _no_ resource
against it?”
“Yes, there is one. That resource lies in life itself. Without such
phantoms and such questionings life would soon become a wearisome
business.”
“Then what ought I to do? To submit to them, and to wear out my heart?”
“No,” he replied. “Rather, arm yourself with resolution, and patiently,
but firmly, pursue your way.” With that he embraced her tenderly. “You
and I are not Titans; it is not for us to join the Manfreds and the
Fausts of this world in going out to do battle with rebellious problems.
Rather, let us decline the challenge of such difficulties, bow our
heads, and quietly live through the juncture until such time as life
shall have come to smile again, and happiness be once more ours.”
“But suppose they decline to pass us by? Will not our doubts and fears
continue to increase?”
“No; for we shall accept them as a new verse in life’s poem. In this
case, however, there is no fear of that. Your trouble is not peculiar to
you alone; it is an infectious malady common to all humanity, of which a
touch has visited you with the rest. Invariably does a human being feel
lost when he or she first breaks away from life and finds no support
in place of it. May God send that in the present instance this mood of
yours be what I believe it to be, and not a forerunner of some bodily
illness. That would be worse, for it would be the one thing before which
I should be nerveless and destitute of weapons. Surely that cloud, that
depression, those doubts, those self-questionings of yours, are not
going to deprive us of our happiness, of our------?” before he could do
so, she had flung herself upon him in a frantic embrace.
“Nothing shall _ever_ do that!” she murmured in an access of renewed joy
and confidence. “No, neither doubts nor sorrow nor sickness! No, nor
yet--nor yet death itself!” Never had she seemed to love him as she did
at that moment.
“Take care that Fate does not overhear what you have whispered,” he
interposed with a superstitious caution born of tender forethought for
her. “Yes, take care that it does not rate you ungrateful, for it likes
to have its gifts appreciated at their true worth. Hitherto you have
been _learning_ only about life: now you are going also to experience
it. Soon, as life pursues its course, there will come to you fresh
sorrows and travail; and, together, they will force you to look beyond
the questions of which you have spoken, and therefore you must husband
your strength.”
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