And I don’t know what it was
which made Katherine divine the moment she saw the doctor approaching
through the comparative gloom of the outer room that he was bringing her
news of something important. Mr. Tredgold had not been worse than usual
in the beginning of this attack; the nurse had treated it just as usual,
not more seriously than before. But she knew at once by the sound of the
doctor’s step, by something in the atmosphere about him, that the usual
had departed for ever and that what he came to tell her of was nothing
less than death. She rose up to meet him with a sort of awe, her lips
apart, her breath coming quick.
“I see,” he said, “that you anticipate what I am going to say.”
“No,” she said with a gasp, “I know of nothing--nothing more than
usual.”
“That is all over,” he answered with a little solemnity. “I am sorry I
can give you so little hope--this time I fear it is the end.”
“The end!” she cried, “the end!” She had known it from the first moment
of his approach, but this did not lessen the shock. She dropped again
upon her seat, and sat silent contemplating that fact--which no
reasoning, no explanation, could get over. The end--this morning
everything as usual, all the little cares, the hundred things he wanted,
the constant service--and afterwards nothing, silence, stillness, every
familiar necessity gone. Katherine’s heart seemed to stand still, the
wonder of it, the terror of it, the awe--it was too deep and too
appalling for tears.
After awhile she inquired, in a voice that did not seem her own, “Is he
very ill? May I go to him now?”
“He is not more ill than you have seen him before. You can go to him,
certainly, but there are some things that you must take into
consideration, Miss Tredgold. He is not aware of any change--he is not
at all anxious about himself. He thinks this is just the same as the
other attacks. If you think it necessary that he should be made aware of
his condition, either because of his worldly affairs, or--any other----”
Dr. Burnet was accustomed to death-beds. He was not overawed like
Katherine, and there seemed something ludicrous to him in the thought of
old Tredgold, an old man of the earth, earthly, having--other affairs.
Katherine looked up at him, her eyes looking twice as large as usual in
the solemnity of their trouble and awe. There seemed nothing else in the
room but her eyes looking at him with an appeal, to which he had no
answer to give. “Would it make any difference--now?” she said.
“I cannot tell what your views may be on that subject. Some are very
eager that the dying should know--some think it better not to disturb
them. It will do him no harm physically to be told; but you must be the
judge.”
“I have not thought of it--as I ought,” she said. “Oh, Dr. Burnet, give
me your opinion, give me your own opinion! I do not seem able to think.”
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