Oliver Constable, miller and baker, Vol. 3 (of 3)Tytler, Sarah
Philosophy
Oliver Constable, miller and baker, Vol. 3 (of 3)
Tytler, Sarah
England -- Social conditions -- 19th century -- Fiction
As Oliver rose hastily to bid Fan welcome, he saw more plainly than
he had yet seen it, and with a sharp pang at the sight, the change in
her looks. A small woman to begin with, she was now little more than
skin and bone. Her brown eyes appeared a sombre black, set in great
shadowy hollows in her white face. The straight firm line of her lips
was drooping and quivering. She put her thin hand in Oliver’s and held
up her face to be kissed, and spoke without any preamble. ‘I am beaten,
Oliver. They say an Englishman never knows when he is beaten, but that
is a man, not a woman. Yet did you ever think I would give in with
life? and I have given in. I have come to you, not to save me—you tried
that once and failed. What did it matter if I might have saved another?
only I have not—there’s the rub. I don’t mind myself, and you need not
mind me. But you must do something. I tell you, Oliver, you must move
heaven and earth to save Harry.’ Her voice rose into a little weak cry.
She was like a creature who had lost all command over herself.
But it was not so much this reversal of natural law in a woman—by
organisation and courage, self-sufficing, self-restrained, rational
and resolute—which smote Oliver Constable with dismay and compunction,
as if he had been the sinner whose sin was at the bottom of this
spectacle, the most pitiable he had ever beheld. It was some
comprehension of what Fan must have suffered, of what it had cost
this woman—ardent and steadfast as women even more than men can prove
themselves—to own herself beaten, to grovel as it were at his knees,
and fling herself for help on him of all men, who, though he had been a
brother in more than name, had interposed with all his might, without
effect, as both of them were well aware, to turn her from the step
which had brought her to this pass.
He remembered having, more than once in their lives, angrily accused
her of being incapable of changing her mind; and—knowing as he had
seemed to know her high spirit, unquenchable energy, and unswerving
determination—he had been tempted to believe, against right reason,
that however mistaken and misplaced her aspirations, or foolish and
baseless her dreams, Fan could not be baffled, and would not be
vanquished.
The end of all was, that she was more thoroughly subdued, presenting
a more deplorable object of contemplation, than if she had been a far
feebler woman.
‘My God!’ cried Oliver in his heart—moved as he was to its depths when
a believing man can but appeal to the Father of his spirit; ‘what must
she not have borne to crush her whole being, lay her pride in the dust,
extinguish the last spark of hope, and break her heart?’
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