“Tant pis pour elle, whoever the other Mrs. Morris may be,” said she,
laughing, as she folded up the letter, and half mechanically regarded
the seal. “You ought to change your crest, respectable father mine,”
muttered she; “the wags might say that your portcullis was a gallows.”
And then, with a weary sigh, she closed her eyes, and fell a-thinking.
That quiet, tranquil, even-tempered category of mankind, whose present
has few casualties, and whose future is, so far as human foresight can
extend, assured to them, can form not the slightest conception of the
mingled pleasure and pain that chequer the life of “the adventurer.” The
man who consents to gamble existence, has all the violent ecstasies of
joy and grief that wait on changeful fortunes.
“Shall I hit upon the right number this time? Will red win once more? Is
the run of luck good or ill, or, it may be, exhausted?” These are
questions ever rising to his mind; and what contrivance, what
preparation, what spirit of exigency do they evoke! Theirs is a hand-to-
hand conflict with Fate; they can subsidize no legions, skulk behind no
parapets; in open field must the war be carried on; and what a cruel war
it becomes when every wound festers into a crime!
This young and pretty woman, on whose fair features not a painful line
was traced, and whose beautifully chiselled mouth smiled with a
semblance of inward peace, was just then revolving thoughts little
flattering to humanity generally. She had, all young as she was, arrived
at the ungracious conclusion that what are called the good are mere
dupes, and that every step in life's ladder only lifts us higher and
higher out of the realm of kindly sympathies and affections. Reading the
great moralist in a version of their own, such people deem all virtue
“vanity,” and the struggles and sacrifices it entails, “vexation of
spirit.” Let us frankly own that Mrs. Morris did not lose herself in any
world of abstractions; she was eminently practical, and would no more
have thrown away her time in speculations on humanity generally than
would a whist-player, in the crisis of the odd trick, have suffered his
mind to wander away to the manufactory where the cards were made, and
the lives and habits of those who made them.
And now she had to think over Sir William, of whom she was half afraid;
of Charles, whom she but half liked; and of May, whom she half envied.
There were none of them very deep or difficult to read, but she had seen
enough of life to know that many people, like fairy tales, are simple in
perusal, but contain some subtle maxim, some cunning truth, in their
moral. Were these of this order? She could not yet determine; how,
therefore, should we? And so we leave her.
CHAPTER VIII. PORT-NA-WHAPPLE
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