Perhaps this very character was what imparted to Layton's mind one of
the most stimulating of all interests; at all events, he addressed
himself to his task like one who, baffled and repulsed as he might be,
would still not acknowledge defeat. As well from the indefatigable ardor
he showed, as from the occasional bursts of boastful triumph in
anticipation of a great success in store, his poor ailing wife had grown
to fancy that his pursuit was something akin to those wonderful
researches after the elixir vitae, or the philosopher's stone. She knew
as little of his real object as of the means he employed to attain it,
but she could see the feverish eagerness that daily gained on him, mark
his long hours of intense thought, his days of labor, his nights of
wakefulness, and her fears were that these studies were undermining his
strength and breaking up his vigor.
It was, then, with a grateful joy at her heart she saw him invited to
the Rectory,--admitted once more to the world of his equals, and the
notice of society. She had waited hour by hour for his return home, and
it was already daybreak ere she heard him enter the cottage, and repair
to his own room. Who knows what deep and heartfelt anxieties were hers
as she sought her bed at last? What sorrowful forebodings might not have
oppressed her? What bitter tears have coursed along her worn cheeks? for
his step was short and impatient as he crossed the little hall, and the
heavy slam of his door, and the harsh grating of the lock, told that he
was ruffled and angry. The morning wore on heavily,--drearily to her, as
she watched and waited, and at last she crept noiselessly to the door,
and tapped at it gently.
“Who's there? Come in!” cried he, roughly.
“I came only to ask if you would not have your breakfast,” said she,
timidly. “It is already near eleven o'clock.”
“So late, Grace?” said he, with a more kindly accent, as he offered her
a seat. “I don't well know how the time slipped over; not that I was
engaged in anything that interested me,--I do not believe I have done
anything whatever,--no, nothing,” muttered he, vaguely, as his wearied
eye ranged over the table.
“You are tired to-day, Herbert, and you need rest,” said she, in a soft,
gentle tone. “Let this be a holiday.”
“Mine are all holidays now,” replied he, with an effort at gayety. Then
suddenly, with an altered voice, he added: “I ought never to have gone
there last night, Grace. I knew well what would come of it. I have no
habits, no temper, no taste, for such associates. What other thoughts
could cross me as I sat there, sipping their claret, than of the cold
poverty that awaited me at home? What pleasure to me could that short
hour of festivity be, when I knew and felt I must come back to this? And
then, the misery, the insult of that state of watchfulness, to see that
none took liberties with me on the score of my humble station.”
“But surely, Herbert, there is not any one--”
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