One Woman: Being the Second Part of a Romance of SussexOllivant, Alfred
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One Woman: Being the Second Part of a Romance of Sussex
Ollivant, Alfred
Sussex (England) -- Fiction
Ruth's in fact was the problem of the unconquered woman--a problem at
least as common among married women who have sought absorption and
found only dissatisfaction as amongst the unmarried. Royal had seized
her imagination for a moment; to Ernie she had submitted. But that
complete immersion in a man and his work which is for a full woman
love, she had never experienced, and longed to experience. After five
years of marriage Ernie was still outside her, an accretion, a
circumstance, a part of her environment, necessary perhaps as her
clothes, but little more: for there was no purpose in his life.
And then just at the moment her lack was making itself most felt, the
Man had come--a real man too, with a work; a pioneer, marching a-head,
axe in hand, hewing a path-way through the Forest, and calling to her
with ever increasing insistency to come out to him and aid him in his
enterprise.
But always as she fingered in her dreams the bolts of the gate that,
once opened, would leave her face to face with the importunate
adventurer, there came swarming about her, unloosing her fingers as
they closed upon the bolts, the children. And as one or other of them
stirred or called out in sleep in the room above her, she would start,
wake, and shake herself. Yet even the pull of the children was not
entirely in one direction. There were four of them now; and they were
growing, while Ernie's wages were standing still. That was one of the
insistent factors of the situation. Were they too to be starved?
Often in her dim kitchen she asked herself that question. For if in
her dreams she was always the mate of a man, she was in fact, and
before all things, the mother of children. Who then was to save them
and her?--Ernie? who was now little more than a shadow, an irritating
shadow, wavering in the background of her life? If so, God help them
all....
One evening she was in the little back-yard taking down the washing,
when she heard a man enter the kitchen. She paid no heed. If it was
Joe he could wait; if it was Ernie she needn't bother. Then she heard
a second man enter, and instantly a male voice, harsh with challenge.
She went in hastily. There was nobody in the kitchen; but Ern was
standing at the outer door. His back was to her, but she detected
instantly in the hunch of his shoulders a rare combativeness.
"You know me," he was growling to somebody outside. "None of it now!"
He turned slowly, a dark look in his face which did not lighten when he
saw her.
"Who was it, Ern?" she asked.
"Alf," he answered curtly.
That night as he sat opposite her she observed him warily as she worked
and put to herself an astonishing question: Was there another
Ernie?--an Ernie asleep she had not succeeded in rousing? Was the
instrument sound and the fault in her, the player?
A chance phrase of Mrs. Trupp's now recurred to her.
"There's so much in Ernie--if you can only get it out."
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