Only an Ensign: A Tale of the Retreat from Cabul, Volume 1 (of 3) — John Shaqi
Only an Ensign: A Tale of the Retreat from Cabul, Volume 1 (of 3)Grant, James
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Only an Ensign: A Tale of the Retreat from Cabul, Volume 1 (of 3)
Grant, James
Afghan Wars -- Fiction
"So the poor old man is gone at last, and our days of dissimulation
are over," she replied, sobbing amid the smiles that beamed on her
up-turned face.
"And you have acted wisely in not adopting deep mourning yet."
"Why--wisely?" she asked, while perceiving that her husband must have
doffed his black costume somewhere on the way to Porthellick, for he
was as usual attired in a shooting-suit and brown-leather gaiters;
and she felt an unpleasant emotion by this circumstance, for whence
this continued caution, she thought; this care, this hateful
continuation of an alias, as it seemed, this playing of a double
character, if all were right and clear? and now the passage in his
letter flashed upon her memory.
"I said 'wisely,' dearest Constance; because we have still a part to
play."
"Still?" she queried, mournfully, and her eyelids drooped.
"Tell me--the children know nothing of this change in our fortunes, I
hope?"
"No--and dear Denzil, you are aware, has been--gazetted."
"To my old corps--so I saw; God bless the boy?" exclaimed Richard
Trevelyan; "yes, but what I mean is, that I must bring you all before
the world--you as the wife, and them as the children, of Lord
Lamorna, with judicious care and a strength of _conviction_ that none
can doubt or challenge."
"Oh, Richard," said she, trembling, "I do not understand you."
"Here, I am still known as Captain Devereaux; but the world, which
deems me a bachelor, must be convinced that we were married to each
other in _faciæ ecclesiæ_, as those lawyer-fellows have it; and the
proofs of that circumstance must be forthcoming."
"Proofs?" she repeated, faintly, as she seated herself, and grew
very, very pale, for it seemed to her over-sensitive mind, as if his
manner had become hard and sententious, even while he stooped over,
and tenderly and caressingly held in his, her little hand whereon was
the wedding ring that Père Latour had consecrated; and now there
ensued a brief pause, for in his knowledge of her extreme
sensibility, and the amount of his own loving nature, he feared the
explanation of all he meant might wound.
Though some might have deemed the secresy to which he had condemned
her for years (lest they might lose the large fortune now theirs)
selfish; Richard Trevelyan had ever been nervously jealous of her
honour, and the honour of their innocent children; and at times, he
had accused himself of moral cowardice in his submission to the
caprice of his uncle. In his heart he had always cursed the
duplicity to which they had been compelled to resort, and the false
position in which that duplicity had placed them all for such a
length of time. All this was to be atoned for now; but he felt that
it must be done wisely, warily and surely, or, as he had said, with
_strength_, lest the world in which he had hitherto moved as a
bachelor--that selfish and suspicious bugbear called "Society" might
shrug its shoulders, and ask, "Can all this story be true?"
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