Only an Ensign: A Tale of the Retreat from Cabul, Volume 3 (of 3) — John Shaqi
Only an Ensign: A Tale of the Retreat from Cabul, Volume 3 (of 3)Grant, James
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Only an Ensign: A Tale of the Retreat from Cabul, Volume 3 (of 3)
Grant, James
Afghan Wars -- Fiction
Then he paused, spread them out upon his writing table, and smoothing
them over, read them carefully over again. As he did so, the
handsome face, the honest smile and manly figure of his brother
Richard came upbraidingly to memory; there were thoughts of other and
long-remembered days of happy boyhood, of their fishing, their
bird-nesting expeditions, and of an old garret in which they were
wont to play when the days were wet, or the snow lay deep on the
hills. How was it, that, till now forgotten, the old garret roof,
with its rafters big and brown, and which seemed then such a fine old
place for sport, with the very sound of its echoes, and of the rain
without as it came pouring down to gorge the stone gutters of the old
house, came back to memory now, with Richard's face and voice, out of
the mists of nearly half a century? "It was one of those flashes of
the soul that for a moment unshroud to us the dark depths of the
past." Thus he really wavered in purpose, and actually thought of
concealing the documents in his strong box, to the end that there
they might be found after his death, and after he had enjoyed the
title for what remained to him of life.
Would not such duplicity be unfair to his own sons, and to his
daughter? was the next reflection.
And if fate permitted Denzil to escape the perils of the Afghan war,
was the son of that mysterious little woman, or was her daughter--the
daughter of one whom he doubted not, and wished not to doubt--had
entrapped his silly brother into a secret marriage, in a remote and
sequestered chapel, and whose memory he actually loathed--ever to
rule and reside in Rhoscadzhel?
No--a thousand times no! Then muttering the lines from Shakespeare,--
"Let not our babbling dreams affright our souls.
Conscience is but a word that cowards use,
Devised at first to keep the strong in awe:"
he drew near the resplendent grate of burnished steel, and resolutely
casting in both documents, thrust them with the aid of the poker deep
among the fuel, and they speedily perished. The deed was done, and
could no more be recalled than the last year's melted snow!
He watched the last sparks die out in the tinder ashes of those
papers, on the preservation and production of which so much depended,
so much was won and lost; and a sigh of relief was blended with his
angry laugh.
He felt that then, indeed, the richly carpeted floor beneath his
feet; the gilded roof above his head, the sweet, soft landscape--one
unusually so for bold and rugged Cornwall--that stretched away in the
soft, hazy, and yellow twilight, and all that he had been on the
verge of losing, were again more surely his, and the heritage of his
children, and of theirs in the time to come, and that none "of
Banquo's line"--none of that strange woman's blood, could ever eject
them now!
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