Living in a boarding-house, with none of the restraints and purifying
influences of a good home, he formed intimacies with brilliant but
unscrupulous young men. The theatre became his church, and at last the
code of his fast, fashionable set was that which governed his life. He
avoided gross, vulgar dissipation, both because his nature revolted at
it, and also on account of his purpose to permit nothing to interfere
with his prospects of advancement in business. He meant to show Miss
Bently that she had made a bad business speculation after all. Thus
ambition became the controlling element in his character; and he might
have had a worse one. Moreover, in all his moral debasement he never
lost a decided tendency toward truthfulness and honesty. He would have
starved rather than touch anything that did not belong to him, nor
would he allow himself to deceive in matters of business, and it was
upon these points that he specially prided himself.
Gregory's unusual business ability, coupled with his knowledge of
French and German, led to his being sent abroad as agent of his firm.
Five years of life in the materialistic and sceptical atmosphere of
continental cities confirmed the evil tendencies which were only too
well developed before he left his own land. He became what so many
appear to be in our day, a practical materialist and atheist. Present
life and surroundings, present profit and pleasure, were all in all. He
ceased to recognize the existence of a soul within himself having
distinct needs and interests. His thoughts centred wholly in the
comfort and pleasures of the day and in that which would advance his
ambitious schemes. His scepticism was not intellectual and in reference
to the Bible and its teachings, but practical and in reference to
humanity itself. He believed that with few exceptions men and women
lived for their own profit and pleasure, and that religion and creeds
were matters of custom and fashion, or an accident of birth. Only the
reverence in which religion had been held in his early home kept him
from sharing fully in the contempt which the gentlemen he met abroad
seemed to have for it. He could not altogether despise his mother's
faith, but he regarded her as a gentle enthusiast haunted by sacred
traditions. The companionships which he had formed led him to believe
that unless influenced by some interested motive a liberal-minded man
of the world must of necessity outgrow these things. With the
self-deception of his kind, he thought he was broad and liberal in his
views, when in reality he had lost all distinction between truth and
error, and was narrowing his mind down to things only. Jew or Gentile,
Christian or Pagan, it was becoming all one to him. Men changed their
creeds and religions with other fashions, but all looked after what
they believed to be the main chance, and he proposed to do the same.
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