"You make me feel small," he said, "and love so big as that would
make any man feel small, I reckon. And for the minute I'll put away
the ways and means and machinery, that always have to be set running
when a man wants to wed a woman."
"What's machinery to us? We didn't love each other by machinery and
us shan't wed by machinery."
"Us can't wed without machinery."
"You say that! Ban't us wed a'ready? Be the rest of it half so fine
as what brought us together, and made us know that our lives couldn't
be lived apart? Ban't you wed to me, Lawrence?"
"I am," he said, "and only death will end it. But there's more than
that for you; and so there's got to be more for me. And if I'm going
to be small now and talk small, it's for you I do, not for myself.
You're a sacred thing to me and holy evermore mind."
"And you be sacred to me," she said. "You've made all men sacred and
holy to me; and you've made me feel different to the least of 'em,
because they be built on the same pattern as you. I swear I feel
kinder and better to everybody on earth since I know you loved me so
true."
"It's this, then--a bit of the past. When I first came here I felt,
somehow, that in Stockman I'd had the good luck to hit on just such
another as my old master up country. He seemed to share the same
large outlook and understanding, and I found him a man so friendly
and charitable with his neighbours that I told him about myself, just
like I told the other; and he was just the same about it--generous
and understanding. In fact, he went further than my old master, and
agreed with me right through, and said it was a very manly thing to
have done, and that if more people had the pluck to cut a loss, the
world would go smoother. He praised me for what I'd done, and I
remember what he said. He said, 'To let sleeping dogs lie be a very
wise rule; and to let sleeping bitches lie be still wiser.' But I
know a lot more about Joe Stockman now than I did then; and though
I've got no quarrel with him, yet, if the time was to come again, I
wouldn't tell him. He'd never tell again, or anything like that; but
he knows it, and if I was to say to him that I held I wasn't married
and wanted another, he'd laugh at me."
Dinah admitted that Mr. Stockman was a serious difficulty.
"What would trouble him wouldn't be that; but the thought of losing
you," she said. "That would make him nasty, no doubt, and quick to
take a line against you."
"Joe knows about Barnstaple. He said to me once, 'Good men come from
Barnstaple; my father did.' He has relatives up that way. But I
only told him I knew the place; I never said I'd come from there."
She was silent for a moment staring straight before her with her
elbows on her knees, her chin on her hands.
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