But not with these things was Maynard's mind occupied when he left
Dinah. He was not a man of very complex character, and the
independence of thought that had marked the chief action of his life
had never been seriously challenged until now. He had been guided by
reason in most questions of conduct and never recognised anything
above or outside reason in the action that led him to desert his wife
on their wedding day; but that same quality it was that now
complicated reason and made him doubt, not for his own sake or well
being, not of the future opened for him by the immense new experience
of loving Dinah, but by the consequences of such a future for Dinah
herself. Here reason spoke with a plain voice. His wits told him
that no rational human being could offer any sort of objection to
their union; and the tribal superstitions that might intervene, based
on the creed morals under which his nation pretended to exist, did
not weigh with him. What did was the law of the land, not the
religion of the land. Under the law he could not marry Dinah, and no
child that might come into the world as a result of their union would
be other than a bastard. That would not trouble her; and, indeed,
need not trouble anybody, for since Gilbert Courtier, as Dinah had
said, no longer existed for them, and was now beyond reach as
completely as though indeed he lay in his grave, there could be none
to rise and question a marriage entered into between him and
Dinah--in Canada, or elsewhere. But there were still the realities
and, beyond them, a certain constituent of his own character which
now began to assert itself. There persisted in his soul a something
not cowardly, but belonging to hereditary instincts of conscience,
mother-taught, through centuries. It made Lawrence want to have all
in order, conformable to the laws of the world and his own deeply
rooted sense of propriety. He had no desire to run with the hare and
hunt with the hounds: he knew that for nothing you can only get
nothing, but he longed, before all else, that the inevitable might
also be the reputable, and that no whisper in time to come should
ever be raised against his future wife. The desire rose much above a
will to mere safety. It was higher than that and, indeed, belonged
to Maynard's ethical values and sense of all that was fitting and
good of report among men and women. It echoed the same influence and
radical conception of conduct that had made him leave his wife on his
wedding day; and the fact that no such considerations controlled
Dinah, the truth that she regarded the situation on a plane of more
or less material reality and felt no sympathy with his shadowy
difficulties, promised to increase them. He hardly saw this himself
yet, but though he felt that she was right, yet doubted, in that
secret and distinctive compartment of his inner self, whether she
might be wrong. He was, for the moment, divided between agreeing
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