I had heard him talked about at Stéphane Mallarmé's house, where he was
described as a brilliant conversationalist, and I expressed a wish to
know him, little hoping that I should ever do so. A happy chance, or
rather a friend, gave me the opportunity, and to him I made known my
desire. Wilde was invited to dinner. It was at a restaurant. We were a
party of four, but three of us were content to listen. Wilde did not
converse--he told tales. During the whole meal he hardly stopped. He
spoke in a slow, musical tone, and his very voice was wonderful. He
knew French almost perfectly, but pretended, now and then, to hesitate
a little for a word to which he wanted to call our attention. He had
scarcely any accent, at least only what it pleased him to affect when
it might give a somewhat new or strange appearance to a word--for
instance, he used purposely to pronounce _scepticisme_ as skepticisme.
The stories he told us without a break that evening were not of his
best. Uncertain of his audience he was testing us, for, in his wisdom,
or perhaps in his folly, he never betrayed himself into saying anything
which he thought would not be to the taste of his hearers; so he doled
out food to each according to his appetite. Those who expected nothing
from him got nothing, or only a little light froth, and as at first
he used to give himself up to the task of amusing, many of those who
thought they knew him will have known him only as the amuser.
When dinner was over we went out. My two friends walking together,
Wilde took me aside and said quite suddenly, 'You hear with your eyes;
that is why I am going to tell you this story.'
He began:--
'When Narcissus died, the Flowers of the Fields were plunged in grief,
and asked the River for drops of water that they might mourn for him.
'"Oh," replied the River, "if all my drops of water were tears, I
should not have enough to weep for Narcissus myself--I loved him."
'"How could you help loving Narcissus?" rejoined the Flowers, "so
beautiful was he."
'"Was he beautiful?" asked the River.
'"And who should know that better than yourself?" said the Flowers,
"for, every day, lying on your bank, he would mirror his own beauty in
your waters."'
Wilde stopped for a moment, and then went on:--
'"If I loved him," replied the River, "it is because when he hung over
my waters I saw the reflection of my waters in his eyes."'
Then Wilde, drawing himself up, added with a strange outburst of
laughter, 'That is called _The Disciple_.'
We had reached his door, and left him. He asked me to meet him again.
During the course of that year and the next I saw him frequently and
everywhere.
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