She is gone! How could the grave imprison that unspotted one! But her
pure, ethereal spirit will not quite forget me, nor soar too high in
bliss, till I ascend to join her. Soon, soon be that hour! I am weary
of the earth-damps; they burden me; they choke me! Already, I can float
in the moonshine; the faint starlight will almost bear up my footsteps;
the perfume of flowers, which grosser spirits love, is now too earthly a
luxury for me. Grave! Grave! thou art not my home. I must flit a
little longer in thy night gloom, and then be gone,--far from the dust
of the living and the dead,--far from the corruption that is around me,
but no more within!
A few times, I have visited the chamber of one who walks, obscure and
lonely, on his mortal pilgrimage. He will leave not many living
friends, when he goes to join the dead, where his thoughts often stray,
and he might better be. I steal into his sleep, and play my part among
the figures of his dreams. I glide through the moonlight of his waking
fancy, and whisper conceptions, which, with a strange thrill of fear, he
writes down as his own. I stand beside him now, at midnight, telling
these dreamy truths with a voice so dream-like, that he mistakes them
for fictions of a brain too prone to such. Yet he glances behind him
and shivers, while the lamp burns pale. Farewell, dreamer,--waking or
sleeping! Your brightest dreams are fled; your mind grows too hard and
cold for a spiritual guest to enter; you are earthly, too, and have all
the sins of earth. The ghost will visit you no more.
But where is the maiden, holy and pure, though wearing a form of clay,
that would have me bend over her pillow at midnight, and leave a
blessing there? With a silent invocation, let her summon me. Shrink
not, maiden, when I come! In life, I was a high-souled youth,
meditative, yet seldom sad, full of chaste fancies, and stainless from
all grosser sin. And now, ill death, I bring no loathsome smell of the
grave, nor ghostly terrors,--but gentle, and soothing, and sweetly
pensive influences. Perhaps, just fluttering for the skies, my visit
may hallow the wellsprings of thy thought, and make thee heavenly here
on earth. Then shall pure dreams and holy meditations bless thy life;
nor thy sainted spirit linger round the grave, but seek the upper stars,
and meet me there!
End of Project Gutenberg’s Other Tales and Sketches, by Nathaniel Hawthorne
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