"There was the _other_ course--what is called the unselfish, the
heroic. Unfortunately, heroism of that kind is only another name for
deliberate falsehood, in word and deed, and I confess I hadn't the
courage for it. Unselfishness which means calculated deception seems to
me by no means admirable. It was not an easy thing to go to Constance,
and tell her what I had to tell; but I know that she herself would much
prefer it to the sham-noble alternative. And I am equally sure, Lady
Ogram, what your own view will be of the choice that lay before me."
The listener made no sort of response to this appeal. "And what had
Constance to say to you?" she asked. Lashmar hesitated, his
embarrassment half genuine, half feigned.
"Here," he replied, in a thoughtfully suspended voice, "I find myself
on very delicate ground. I hardly feel that I should be justified in
repeating what passed between us. I hoped you had already heard it. Was
it not from Constance that you learnt--?"
"Don't begin to question _me_," broke in Lady Ogram, with sudden
severity. "What I know, and how I know it, is none of your business.
You'll have the goodness to tell me whatever I ask you."
Dyce made a gesture of deprecating frankness.
"Personally," he said in a low voice, "I admit your right to be kept
fully informed of all that comes to pass in this connection. Will it be
enough if I say that Constance accepted my view of what had happened?"
"Did you tell her everything that _had_ happened?" asked Lady Ogram,
looking him in the eyes.
"Not in detail," Dyce replied, rather nervously, for he could not with
certainty interpret that stern look. "You will understand that--that I
was not at liberty--that I had to respect--"
He came near to losing himself between the conflicting suggestions of
prudence and hopefulness. At the sight of his confusion, Lady Ogram
smiled grimly.
"You mean," she said, in a voice which seemed to croak indulgence,
"that you had no right to tell Constance anything about Miss Tomalin?"
Lashmar's courage revived. He suspected that the old autocrat knew
everything, that both girls had already gone through the ordeal of a
private interview with her, and had yielded up their secrets. If so,
plainly the worst was over, and nothing would now serve but sincerity.
"That is what I mean," he answered, quietly and respectfully, admiring
his own dignity as he spoke.
"We are beginning to understand each other," said Lady Ogram, the grim
smile still on her face. "I don't mind telling you, now, that I have
spoken both with Constance and with May."
Lashmar manifested his relief. He moved into an easier posture; his
countenance brightened; he said within himself that destiny was hearing
him on to glorious things.
"I'm very glad indeed to hear that, Lady Ogram! It ruts my mind at
rest."
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