Outcast Robin : $b or, Your brother and mine : a cry from the great cityMeade, L. T.
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Outcast Robin : $b or, Your brother and mine : a cry from the great city
Meade, L. T.
Abandoned children -- Juvenile fiction; London (England) -- Juvenile fiction; Poor -- Juvenile fiction
He touched it with his trembling fingers; he longed intensely to get
away from it, and yet he could not stir. His knees felt bound with
irons to the floor; his hands must, whether he liked it or not, touch
that cold cheek; his eyes must rest on his wife's dead face. And all
the time he was looking also at his sins. He knew that he had killed
Sally; that he had finished the work the Dolphin had set him to do.
He had committed murder!
His thoughts took no connected form, for his mind was too much gone,
and even this shock failed to clear that muddled brain; but he felt
horrible, and he knew that he deserved hell. Sally was dead; lying
stiff by his side all night a corpse had been, and he had been
dreaming of his wife as rosy-faced and beautiful. He had awakened
and felt thirsty, and thought that he would order her up to make him
a cup of tea. Even in dying that patient woman would have struggled
to obey him; but now she was dead. He might storm at her now, but
she would not heed him; he might beat her now, but she would not feel
his blows. Sally was too great for him at last. She had passed
beyond his power--she was dead!
He had killed her; he and the Dolphin had worn her to what she was.
She was dead, and he deserved hell.
These, though hardly in sustained thought, but in confusion frightful
as a nightmare, were some of the sensations of this poor lost wretch.
After a time his bodily thirst overcame his mental pain, and he
stumbled to his feet, and looked about him for something to drink.
The kettle, placed by Molly there the night before, still hung over
the ashes in the grate.
He took a draught from it eagerly, drinking from the spout.
As he set it down again he heard an infant's cry. The feeble, sharp
cry of a new-born baby smote on his ear. A strange look came into
his face at that cry--a new expression which he had certainly not
worn a moment before. Then he had been at the verge of remorse, of
sorrow, of repentance; a word, a touch, almost a look, would have
taken the man then into the Valley of Humiliation, through which and
the Shadow of Death he might have passed into a new life; but at the
baby's cry the agony on his face gave way to an expression of
selfishness and cunning.
There was another mouth to be fed, and he must feed it; there was
another child to take from the Dolphin's spoils. He pictured the
whole state of affairs vividly enough now. The wife who worked so
hard, and earned far more than he of late had earned, was gone, and
Molly and Patty would persecute him for money to buy milk and food
for this fresh and unwelcome mouth.
The older children might manage as they could, but the baby must take
from his spoils and lessen his enjoyment.
Would it not be possible for him to get rid of the baby!
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