He was going on that afternoon to explain to me how, in a marriage free
from the disturbances of passion incidental to temperamental matings, I
should be at ease to give myself wholly to the business of book-making.
With all his understanding, Herman was fully possessed of that Academic
notion that literature can be produced by taking pains instead of having
them. He was very patient with me through it all, crediting my
indifference to overwork and to nerves, as a man does with a woman when
he is at a loss to know what is the matter with her. The truth was, if I
was tired of anything, it was of being the very things Herman most
admired in me. I was growing every moment more exasperated. By the time
he had got to the point of wanting to know what more there was that he
could say, I had reached the pitch of replying that there could be
nothing more unless he wished to say the usual thing.
“And that?” He turned to me with a sincere and astonished inquiry in his
lifted brows.
“Would be merely that you love me and can’t live without me.”
“Oh, if you want me to say what the grocer’s man says to the cook in the
kitchen!”—he flushed—“but you know very well, Mona, that I am not going
to insult your intelligence and mine with the clap-trap of passion.
Certainly I’ve no such cheap sort of feeling for you, and I’m not such
an infernal cad as to suppose you have——Mona?”
It might have been the wind that blew from the country beyond Broken
Tree at that moment, or something in my face, that turned that last
repetition of my name upon the point of interrogation. Though it was my
crying objection to Herman that he could not produce in me those
raptures and alarms and whirlings to and fro, out of which I knew all
creative art to proceed, yet to have him so renounce for us both the
possibility of such a relation filled me with sudden wounding and
affront. And at that, or at some new shadow of wonder in his eyes with
the turning of his voice upon the word, I found myself so little able to
give back look for look, that it was a great relief to me to discover
the hawk’s nest in the Broken Tree. The creek makes a turn here, and the
stepping-stones were so far apart it was necessary for Herman to go
ahead and reach me back his hand. As I swung past him I heard him say my
name again with so new a touch of shamed credulity that I was glad to
put my hand up over my eyes, making believe I had not heard him, and
look very attentively at Broken Tree.
It stands on the upper bank of the creek, snapped off midway by the
wind. Below the break two great sweeping boughs spread either way like
the arms of a guide-post. The nest is in the splintered hollow of the
trunk.
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