Over Bemerton's : $b An easy-going chronicleLucas, E. V. (Edward Verrall)
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Over Bemerton's : $b An easy-going chronicle
Lucas, E. V. (Edward Verrall)
London (England) -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Middle-aged men -- Fiction
Very nervously did I ring Miss Gold's bell; but, as is usual in this
life, I found the realisation of the visit far easier than the
anticipation. The little lady was brave enough for two. "My dear
Kent," she said, after a little while, "you must not come and see me
if you are going to look so sad. I want you to come often: you will
do me so much good. But it is quite useless if you have such a
mournful expression. What is it after all? I am very happy lying
here. I have many kind friends. The garden is so wonderful always,
and I have a gardener who is also an invaluable companion and never
wants to make a rustic fence. The birds trust me: there is a robin
that comes right into the room and will do so until he is a month or
so older and has been told more about man's nature. I have letters
every morning, and my eyes are so good that I can read and write all
day if I like. As for death, my dear Kent, we must not be so
frightened of it. I have grown to think of death without any fear or
shuddering. After all, if I live to be eighty, my life on my
eightieth birthday will be as much behind me as a child's of five.
It is only to-day that we live for--to-day and to-morrow. No one
dares to look much more forward than that. The past is so completely
over that in a kind of way one life may be said to be as long as
another."
I did my best to be equally optimistic, and quoted an old epigram of
my friend Trist's to the effect that every birth certificate is in a
manner of speaking a death warrant.
Miss Gold liked that. "And another thing," she said: "considering
how uncertain is life and how many fatal accidents occur every day,
it is illogical to be cheerful with every one else, and pull a long
face when you come to see me. Because I may be lying on this couch
in ten years' time just as I am to-day; whereas one of your strong,
healthy friends with whom you dine to-night may be knocked down and
killed by a motor car to-morrow morning. No, Kent, with me you must
be gay."
I so far fell into her humour as to tell her about one or two of Mr.
Giles's Chinese heroes, whose quiet acceptance of death is perhaps
their most astonishing characteristic to a Western reader--the
characteristic which most differentiates them from ourselves, who
cling to life more passionately with each generation. I told her of
the death of Wang Ching-wên of the fifth century A.D., who one
evening, as he was playing chess with a friend, received orders to
commit suicide. "After having read the Imperial mandate, he finished
his game and put the board away. A bowl of poison was brought to
him; and then turning to his friend he remarked jestingly, 'I am
afraid I cannot ask you to join me!' and quietly drained the bowl."
"That is the way," said Miss Gold; "but it certainly is not English."
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