In this Paddy was not sorry to acquiesce. She wanted to be alone, and
the shaded light was soothing. Through a dim sense of confusion—a
confusion that she felt incapable of unravelling as to what had, and
what had not, taken place—there were certain recollections that made
her cheeks burn, and caused her to hide shrinking eyes in the cushions.
How, oh how, was she ever to face him with those recollections lying
between them? She half knew that in the first moment she had clung to
him, and she had an indistinct remembrance that he had kissed her hair,
and spoken in a low, passionate voice, calling her soft, endearing
names.
Afterward, certainly, they had regained their old footing, but what
about that long sleep? Under what conditions had she been able to sleep
thus peacefully in the midst of such discomfort? That was the question
Paddy dare not face, remembering his pallid cheeks and blue lips, while
the old coachman brought the circulation back into his cramped limbs.
She half hoped he would come to-day, while she was lying in the
darkened room. It would be easier to get through the interview in the
dark. But he did not come, and she lay restlessly, puzzling out the
enigma in which their adventure had placed her.
What about that hate of hers! Can one—_may_ one—hate one’s preserver!
She half prayed he would let her thank him quietly, and then go away.
For hate or no hate, she perhaps owed him her life, and gratitude was
his due.
But two days passed, and Lawrence did not come, and as she recovered
further from the shock, she rallied herself, and felt more equal to the
interview. She believed it was consideration for her that kept him
away, and was grateful. In two days more her holiday would be up and
she must return to London, and once away the adventure could be put
aside. If only it had not been so hard to go—
On the afternoon of the third day Paddy wandered alone to a little
creek by the loch, and, sitting down on a fallen tree, sank her chin in
her hands and gazed across the water with a whole world of yearning
longing in her eyes at the thought of leaving it all and returning to
the streets, and chimney-pots, and smuts. So rapt was she that she did
not hear some one approach over the moss and stand silently beside
her—some one who saw the yearning, and read it aright with mingled
feelings of regret and gladness.
“I began to think I’d never find you,” he said at last in his quietest
way, and Paddy started violently, and flushed to the roots of her hair,
while she continued gazing across the loch, quite unable to meet his
eyes.
He sat down on the log beside her, and leaned forward with his arms
across his knees, playing idly with a twig he had picked up.
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