“I don’t see that. ‘First come, first served,’ is a perfectly fair
rule. You should have been sharper and got there before him. You see
you’re too late in this quarter also.”
“What! Have you promised too?”
“Yes; yesterday.”
Jack bit his lip and felt furious with himself and all the world.
“What in the name of fortune am I to do?” he asked. “With neither you
nor Eileen for the supper-dance, I shan’t know myself.”
“You must ask Kathleen Blake, of course. It is what you ought to have
done all along,” and then suddenly Paddy swung herself half across the
room and stepped out of the French window into the garden, and vanished
in the direction of the shore. It was unpleasantly present in her mind
that Jack had not been sufficiently interested to ask to whom she had
promised the dance; and it left her in that mood when the only relief
is occupation. So she untied the boat, stepped in, and proceeded to
take a steady row. If Jack continued blind, she wondered vaguely, what
would become of them all?
“Heigho!” she murmured, resting on her oars. “It seems to me we’re all
changing. Jack’s getting serious, and Eileen is getting serious, and if
I don’t mind I shall get serious too. What a pity we can’t stay
children another ten years.” She looked a little dreamily to the
horizon. “I wonder if something’s going to happen,” she mused. “I’ve an
odd feeling somewhere, either in my head, or in my boots—I don’t quite
know which—that there’s something in the air; an ‘Ides of March’—sort
of feeling that makes me inclined to be quite tragic and Julius
Caesarish. Well! well!”—gripping her oars again—“if it comes, it comes,
Paddy Adair, and you’ll just have to make the best of it. Meanwhile you
had better make hay while the sun shines, and go out with the boys
shooting as you promised,” and she turned homeward again.
Eileen, from far up in the mountain, watched her a little wonderingly,
recognising the boat and Paddy’s vigorous strokes, even from that
distance. But she was too engrossed with her own thoughts to wonder
long, and presently gained her own favourite nook, in which the October
sun was shining warmly. Here, sitting down in her favourite attitude,
she leant her chin in her hands and gazed at the turquoise sea on the
horizon. But the old soft dreaminess was changed to-day for that
wistful, troubled look that had grown of late, and in the depths of the
deep blue eyes there was a new sadness.
“I cannot help it,” she said at last. “Whether he is a good man or not;
whether it is right or wrong, I love him, I love him.”
Then, raising her eyes to the deep vault of the blue above, she
breathed softly, “Oh God! help me to help him; teach me, teach me, that
if the time comes that he should want me, I may be ready and strong to
lead him back to love, and faith, and happiness. For the rest, if there
must be suffering, I will try to be brave and content.”
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