“In the darkness of that dungeon,” answered the old man, “I felt my soul
going from me, I struggled hard to keep it—but it went, it went; the
cruel wants of the body conquered it. Hunger, cold, the eternal drip of
stagnant waters drove me mad, I think, for days lengthened into black
years, and years grew into eternity. To me there was neither heaven or
earth, nothing but that dungeon and its four dripping walls. As the
memory of my sweet home among the vineyards died out, I began to love
those walls; my eyes transformed themselves for the darkness, and
learned to watch the creeping things that came and went into my dungeon;
the bright-eyed toads, that sat hour by hour looking into my face, as if
they wondered what manner of animal I was, sitting there so inert and
helpless; or, hopping from place to place. They never felt the closeness
of those four walls. After a time these creatures, so loathsome at
first, became dear as children to me. I watched their coming with eager
longing, and out of my scant food saved a little for them, that they
might not be tempted to leave me. I would sit hours together holding one
of these creatures in my hand, counting the spots on its back with my
fingers, and smoothing its soft throat with gentle touches, while his
bright eyes shone on me through the darkness.
“Sometimes these pretty reptiles would creep into my bosom as I slept at
night. Then I dreamed that the little hand of my child was caressing me.
You understand, monsieur, as my sight had shaped itself to the darkness,
so my heart, closed in by despair, found something to love even in that
loathsome cell.”
“Go on! go on!” said the stranger, sharply, “I am listening!”
“Sometimes a keeper was harsh and cruel when he came to my cell, but
oftener he was grim and silent, refusing to speak or answer one word
of the questions which at first almost choked me as they crowded up
from my heart. By degrees I did not care—what was the outer world to
me, sitting there in the darkness of my tomb. Sometimes this man
brought a lamp, and let me cut off the long hair which flowed over my
shoulders like a woman’s. At first it was soft and golden, then it
grew whiter—whiter—whiter; and by this I marked the time. When I came
out the other day, it was drifted snow like this.
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