Fantasy fiction; Utopian fiction; Utopias -- Fiction
“When you remember,” said the doctor, “that I am seldom at home, that
you have had ten hours to my one to instil _your_ principles, you ought
not to complain. Fannie, dear,” he said, after a pause, and suddenly
changing his defiant mood, “let us do the best we can with life. Heaven
knows it is anything but a blessing to most of us.” This is what he
actually said, but there had been quite a different train of thought in
his mind. It had just escaped utterance, through one of those mysteries
of brain-action that control our motives. He had been about to say that
it had been better for her, and him also, if they had separated twenty
years ago; that nothing cramps the growth of all that is best in manhood
and womanhood like the forced intimacy of the marriage tie, when no deep
sympathy or mutual trust exists; that it is like preserving year after
year a corpse in your drawing-room with spices and perfumes, pretending
that it is only sleeping. He was glad he had not said it, for no power
of his could make her enter, even for a moment, the world in which he
lived; and it was useless, and worse than useless, to attempt it. He
left soon after on his round of daily visits to his patients, taking
with him a note from Clara to Susie, and a little later Mrs. Forest went
to Clara’s room. This was an interview that Clara dreaded, for her
mother would neither comprehend nor excuse her motives for the step she
had taken. Clara commenced by saying she was sorry that she had been
compelled to do anything that grieved her mother. As she said this she
rose and begged her mother to take the arm-chair in which she had been
sitting by the fire, wrapped in her mother’s “double gown.” Mrs. Forest
refused kindly, and brought a shawl for Clara’s shoulders, as the
morning was cold. Clara was touched by this kindness, which she
expressed by kissing her mother’s hand. Mrs. Forest wanted the whole
story. Clara commenced, but broke down after a few sentences. Mrs.
Forest soothed her a little, and then sat down quietly and commenced to
sew. One of her soothing remarks was that no doubt Albert would forgive
her for leaving him, and write for her to return.
“That will only show how little he knows of my father’s girl.”
“Your father’s girl,” said Mrs. Forest, with some heat, “was always a
Quixotic enthusiast, always holding notions and whims that no
sober-minded person ever heard of.”
“I don’t know that my ambition is to be sober-minded. Heads are very
good in their way, but as for me, I believe in hearts.”
“And no doubt you worried Albert to death with your romantic nonsense.”
“Did I?” said Clara, as if her thoughts were far away. “I wished him to
love me, mother dear. If that is being romantic, I am certainly guilty.”
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