Courtship -- Fiction; Mate selection -- Fiction; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
"Oh, yes! But I am clear-headed now. Don't come. I really mean it. I
don't want you."
She slipped down the ladder, leaving him alone. He stood a moment
looking at the branches which hid her from his sight, and then flung
himself down upon a rustic seat in deep thought.
Meanwhile Patty went back towards the brook and her home. She stopped
at the bridge as before, but now the vague unrest in her heart was
changed to positive pain. It had not been giddiness which had made
her white, but a sudden conviction, that, after all, her lover had no
passion worth the name. She was very unhappy,--so unhappy, indeed, as
to forget to be angry with herself for being so. She saw Hazard Breck
coming down the brookside, and looked about for a means of escape from
meeting him. At that moment he looked up, and saw her. He involuntarily
made a motion, as if half minded to turn back; and instantly a
desire arose in Patty to encounter him. Life, like dreams, goes often
by contraries; and desires are oftener caught upon the rebound than
directly.
"Good-afternoon," Patty called, with a fine assumption of gayety.
"Good-afternoon," he answered, coming up to her side, and leaning upon
the railing of the bridge.
"Are you thinking of suicide?" she asked, as he continued to look, not
at her, but intently into the water.
"No, indeed!"
"Then don't look so melancholy, please."
"How shall I look?"
"I don't much care; only don't have that dreadful dead-and-gone
expression."
"Shall I grin?"
"Of course not!"
"Why may I not look melancholy, then?"
"Because it does not please me to have you," she said.
"Oh!" he retorted. "The trouble is not in me, then, but in your mood."
"I am not given to moods. I am _semper idem_."
"So is a post."
"Thank you!" Patty replied. "You are as complimentary as your uncle."
"Uncle Tom? Where did you see him?"
"At various places in Montfield all my life."
Hazard began to look at her curiously. He had at first noticed
nothing strange in her manner, being too much occupied with his own
disquietude, having left the house after aunt Pamela had confided to
him his uncle's passion. He had been walking along the side of the
brook, recalling the thousand signs of this love which he had seen,
and yet accounted not at all; and he wondered, man-like, at his own
obtuseness to what now seemed so clear. When he met Patty, he was
absorbed in counterfeiting indifference; but something in her tone made
him perceive at length that she was not her usual self. Perhaps the
love in his own heart, whose fruition he had unquestioningly resigned
at the words of aunt Pamela, made him clearer sighted. He longed to
question her, to tell her of his uncle's love and of his own. His lip
trembled with the impetuous words he could not speak, and his eyes were
fixed upon her face with an intense gaze which was more than she could
bear.
"Good-by," she said hastily, and went her way.
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