Miss Farrar had assured him she did not like his way. She objected
to being regarded and treated as a castle that could be taken only by
assault. Whether she wished time to consider, or whether he and his
proposal were really obnoxious to her, he could not find out. His policy
of campaign was that she, also, should not have time to find out. Again
and again she had agreed to see him only on the condition that he would
not make love to her. He had promised again and again, and had failed
to keep that promise. Only a week before he had been banished from her
presence, to remain an exile until she gave him permission to see her
at her home in New York. It was not her purpose to return there for two
weeks, and yet here he was, a beggar at her gate. It might be that he
was there, as he said, “on duty,” but her knowledge of him and of the
doctrine of chances caused her to doubt it.
“Mr. Lathrop!” she began, severely.
As though to see to whom she had spoken Lathrop glanced anxiously over
his shoulder. Apparently pained and surprised to find that it was to him
she had addressed herself, he regarded her with deep reproach. His eyes
were very beautiful. It was a fact which had often caused Miss Farrar
extreme annoyance.
He shook his head sadly.
“‘Mr. Lathrop?’” he protested. “You know that to you I am always
‘Charles--Charles the Bold,’ because I am bold to love you; but never
‘Mr. Lathrop,’ unless,” he went on briskly, “you are referring to a
future state, when, as Mrs. Lathrop, you will make me--”
Miss Farrar had turned her back on him, and was walking rapidly up the
path.
“Beatrice,” he called. “I am coming after you!”
Miss Farrar instantly returned and placed both hands firmly upon the
gate.
“I cannot understand you!” she said. “Don’t you see that when you act
as you do now, I can’t even respect you? How do you think I could ever
care, when you offend me so? You jest at what you pretend is the most
serious thing in your life. You play with it--laugh at it!”
The young man interrupted her sharply.
“It’s like this,” he said. “When I am with you I am so happy I can’t be
serious. When I am NOT with you, it is SO serious that I am utterly and
completely wretched. You say my love offends you, bores you! I am sorry,
but what, in heaven’s name, do you think your NOT loving me is doing to
ME? I am a wreck! I am a skeleton! Look at me!”
He let his bicycle fall, and stood with his hands open at his sides, as
though inviting her to gaze upon the ruin she had caused.
Four days of sun and rain, astride of a bicycle, without food or sleep,
had drawn his face into fine, hard lines, had bronzed it with a healthy
tan. His uniform, made by the same tailor that fitted him with polo
breeches, clung to him like a jersey. The spectacle he presented was
that of an extremely picturesque, handsome, manly youth, and of that
fact no one was better aware than himself.
“Look at me,” he begged, sadly.
Miss Farrar was entirely unimpressed.
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