British -- Asia -- Fiction; Women physicians -- Fiction
“Oh, but how could you tell?” cried Georgia, quickly, appalled by this
revelation of the tragedy which Jahan Beg had brought into the life of
his slighted wife. “You don’t understand English. You may have
mistaken what he said.” The Lady Nafiza smiled.
“How could I tell, O doctor lady? My heart told me. Though I might not
understand the words, yet I could not mistake the tone. And thus my
dream faded. But when my daughter Nur Jahan was born, my lord left off
crying out to the other woman, but he spoke more and more in his sleep
of his own land. I _knew_ it, O doctor lady, though I could not
understand. And one day, sitting at his feet, with my baby in my arms,
while he held up the hilt of his sword so that the light might flash
upon the jewels and make the child laugh, I plucked up my courage and
said, ‘Does my lord long very sorely for his own land that he cries
out for it every night?’ I would have gone on to tell him that for his
sake I was ready to leave my people and flee with him to his land, but
his brow darkened, and he sprang up and seized me by the shoulder. ‘Am
I not safe in my own house?’ he cried in a dreadful voice. ‘Do they
set my wife to spy upon me? Woman, no one that has betrayed Jahan Beg
lives another hour!’ What could I do but embrace his knees and kiss
his feet, and entreat his mercy for my child’s sake, since he had no
pity for me? And he thrust me from him and went out. Never again did I
speak to him of the words he uttered in sleep. But I loved him still,
and cast about how I might win him to me. At last it seemed to me that
there was indeed a reason for my ill-success, for I had given my lord
no son. Then, after many tears shed in secret, and many struggles with
myself, I said to him, ‘Let my lord choose another wife, who may bear
him sons, and I will welcome her into my house, and she shall be to me
as a sister, for my lord’s sake, and her children as my own.’ This I
did, thinking that he feared to supplant me because I was the King’s
cousin--and indeed, all this house and the slaves were part of my
dowry, and belong to me--but he _laughed_, O doctor lady, he laughed
at me, though I was giving him that which it broke my heart to offer,
and he said, ‘If I desired other wives, I would take them, but one is
enough for me.’ Why should my lord visit upon me the evil deeds of
that other woman, O doctor lady? for I know that she must have
deceived him. But from that day I sought no more to speak to my
husband’s heart. And my daughter grew up; but she was like him and his
people, and not like me, and he loved her for that reason, so that
sometimes I almost hated my own child. But that is long ago, and I
remember it to-day only as a warning to thee.”
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