On the morning following the departure of the geologists Gregory took
the bit between his teeth and went in to Butte to see his wife. In his
first moment of shock and confusion it had seemed to him best that Ora,
whose subtlety he recognised, was the one to manipulate Ida’s still too
formalistic mind toward the divorce court; but he was unaccustomed to
relegate any part of his affairs to others, least of all to a woman.
Nor did he think it necessary to inform Ora of his sudden decision.
He might work almost double shift to keep her out of his thoughts and
diminish temptation, and he might marry her and continue to love her
passionately; but she would obtain little ascendency over him. He knew
what he wanted; he had trained his will until at times it appeared
formidable even to himself, and he was as nearly the complete male that
regards woman, however wonderful, as the supplementary female as still
survives.
He had few illusions about himself, and it had crossed his mind more
than once, since the hope of divorce had dazzled both of them, that
for a year or two or least there must be a certain amount of friction
between a nature like his and a complex, super-civilised, overgrown
feminine ego like Ora Blake. While he had sat with his legs stretched
out to the fire and his eyes half closed, his body weary, but mentally
alert, he had received certain definite impressions of an independent
almost anarchical mind, contemptuous of the world and its midges save
as they might be of use to herself; of a mind too well-bred ever to
be managing and exacting in any vulgar sense, but inexorable in its
desires and as unscrupulous in their pursuit as her father had been; of
a superlative refinement coupled with a power of intense and reckless
passion found only in women possessing that quality of imagination that
exalts and idealises the common mortal attributes. Moreover, it was a
mind that, the first joy of submission and surrender diminished, would
think for itself.
Until that night when both had dropped the mask for a moment he had
never thought of her as a complicated ego, merely as one from whom
he felt temporarily separated after a union of centuries; and it had
been the reluctant admission that he knew her very little, save as a
gracious woman and his own companion, that had enabled him to school
himself to spend long hours with her alone as before. He had tumbled
blindly into matrimony once, and no matter how much he might love this
woman, to whom he had seemed from the first to be united by a secret
and ancient bond, he was determined none the less to marry the second
time with his eyes wide open.
But although his glimpses of Ora’s winding depths gave him moments of
uneasiness he always fell back upon the complacent reflection that he
was a man, a man, moreover, with a cast-iron will, and that the woman
did not live who would not have to adapt herself to him did he take her
to wife.
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