Phases of an Inferior PlanetGlasgow, Ellen Anderson Gholson
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Phases of an Inferior Planet
Glasgow, Ellen Anderson Gholson
Fiction
Through the long, hot day he lay relaxed and nerveless, conscious of the
glare of the sunshine, but dreading to draw the shades, conscious of the
closeness of the atmosphere, and conscious of a beating, like the
strokes of an anvil, in his temples. When his dinner was brought he
drank a cup of tea and sat up. Then he reached for a phial of morphia
pellets which he kept in his desk, and, dissolving one in water,
swallowed it. For a moment the temptation to take the contents of the
phial at a dose assailed him, but, more from inability to venture a
decisive step than from any mental determination, he laid the bottle
aside. Action of any kind appeared intolerably irksome, and he waived
with disgust the solution of the simple problem of his life.
As he fell back upon the bed, his glance passed over the pillow beside
him, and he pictured to himself the circle which Mariana's head had
drawn upon the cotton. He remembered that she always slept lying upon
her right side, her left knee bent, one hand under the pillow and one
lying upon her breast, her profile shadowed by dreams. He remembered the
nervous fear she felt of resting upon her heart, and that, having once
turned upon her left side, she awoke with palpitating breaths and a
smothered cry. He saw her calmer slumber, he felt her rhythmic
breathing, and he recalled his sensation when one of her loosened braids
had brushed his cheek. Again he saw her as she leaned over to soothe the
child, and, raising it in her arms, hushed it upon her breast. He
recalled it dully, as one recalls the incidents of long-past years over
which the colorless mantle of time has been cast to deaden the
flickering embers amid the ashes. In his mind there was no virility of
passion nor intensity of bitterness--there was only an almighty
melancholy. Life in its sufficiency of satisfied desires showed stale
and unprofitable, and in its barrenness it was but a blank.
The sunshine, blazing through the open window, accelerated the throbbing
in his temples. In the morbid acuteness of his senses, the cries of the
vegetable venders in the street below harassed his ears. Along his whole
body there ran a quivering flame of fever, and his thoughts spun like a
revolving globe. The morphia had not stilled the beating in his head. It
had produced a sensation of sickness, which seemed but the physical
accompaniment of his mental syncope.
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