Phases of an Inferior PlanetGlasgow, Ellen Anderson Gholson
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Phases of an Inferior Planet
Glasgow, Ellen Anderson Gholson
Fiction
He surveyed the books stacked against the opposite wall and wondered
vaguely at the energy with which he had attacked those volumes upon
whose covers the dust was now lying like a veil. He tried to arouse a
memory of the old intellectual exhilaration with which he had grappled
with and vanquished an unexplored department of thought. He remembered
that at such moments the printed lines before him had assumed an unusual
degree of clearness, and that he had been reading _The Wealth of
Nations_ when a point in comparative morphology occurred to him. But the
sensation itself he could not recover. The association of ideas was
still unbroken, but the mental state was lost.
As he lay there, tossing restlessly upon the heated pillows, he reviewed
unsympathetically his old pursuit of knowledge. What did it all mean?
For what had he given his heritage of youth and manhood? For Truth.
Granted, but what was Truth that he should follow it unswervingly until
he passed from flesh and blood to a parcel of dry bones? How could he
find it, and, finding, know it? That gray and ancient scepticism which
had never appealed to him in health preyed now upon his wasting vitals.
Since through the senses alone one could perceive, and the senses were
but faulty instruments, what was perception worth? What were ideas but
the figments produced by faculties which were at best deceptive? And in
the infinite complexity of the self-sustaining reality, of what account
were the abstractions of the finite intellect? In Truth itself, that
all-pervading immateriality, were not the myriads of man's little truths
ingulfed and lost? Were not true and false but symbols to express the
differing relations of a great whole, as evolution and dissolution were
symbols to express the recurring waves of a great force. As one man with
his single hand barring the march of the seasons, was the man who by his
single brain sought to hasten the advance of the Law which is Truth. And
though he crumbled to dust, not one needful fact but would find its way
into the moving world.
Stunned by despondency, he closed his eyes and groaned. In the absolute
grasp of the futility of endeavor, he realized the lowest depths of
human hopelessness. It was as if he had reached the ultimate nothing,
the end to which his pathway led. Though he dashed his brains into the
void, not one breath of the universal progress would swerve from its
course.
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