Oh, no, Abbie. Malice wasn’t in her. It was just that a good many
things--well, the things that are important to most people weren’t so
important to Bernice. It was another set of things were important.
People called her detached. But--I don’t know. Maybe _they’re_
detached, Abbie. Maybe it’s Laura Kirby, the sensible woman, who’s
detached,--Bernice would have laughed at that--the practical person
who’s detached, and Bernice.... You know what I mean, Abbie?
ABBIE
I think I do--knowing her.
FATHER
To you--did she seem detached?
ABBIE
[_Tenderly thinking it out._] She was loving, and thoughtful, and gay.
But always a little of what she is now--[_Faces the closed door_] off
by herself. [_With that intensity the present moment does not account
for._] You can’t expect to understand a person who is “off by herself.”
Now can you?
FATHER
I understood Bernice. Except, there were things--outside what I
understood.
ABBIE
[_Eagerly._] That’s it. And we should take what _we_ had, shouldn’t we,
and not try to reach into--to where we didn’t go.
FATHER
I suppose that’s true, Abbie. [_Buries his face._] I wish my little
girl hadn’t died. What am I going to do, Abbie? How can I stay here?
And how can I go away? We should die in our proper order; I should
have gone before my daughter. Anything else makes confusion. There’s
not going to be anybody to laugh at me now, Abbie. I’ll miss the way
Bernice laughed at me, a laugh that took me in and--yes, took me in.
She laughed at my spending the whole time of the war studying Sanscrit.
Well, why shouldn’t I? What can the old do about war? I had my vision
of life. If that had been followed there’d have been no war. But in
a world that won’t have visions--why not study Sanscrit while such a
world is being made over--into another such world. [_Listening._] You
hear some one, Abbie?
ABBIE
[_After listening._] It didn’t turn in.
FATHER
And you, Abbie. [_With wonder._] Why you were with us when Bernice was
born.
ABBIE
Yes, I was--in the room the night she was born. The night she died I
thought of the night she was born.
FATHER
That was--how long ago, Abbie?
ABBIE
Thirty-five years ago.
FATHER
Was Bernice thirty-five years old? She _was_, Abbie--my little girl?
Well, life moves by--and we hardly know it’s moving. Why, Abbie, your
whole life has been lived around Bernice. [_ABBIE nods._] It will be
now as if things had--fallen apart. And it was the main thing in your
life--doing things for her.
ABBIE
[_With excitement._] Yes, it was the _main_ thing in my life--doing
what she wanted. I couldn’t do anything else now, could I?
FATHER
[_A little surprised at her agitation, but not thinking about it._]
Why, no. Now some one is coming, Abbie. You hear them coming?
ABBIE
I think so. [_She goes to the door._] Yes.
[_ABBIE opens the door and LAURA and CRAIG come in. CRAIG holds back
as if to enter this house is something he can scarcely make himself
do; he does not look around the room._
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