Friendship -- Fiction; Poor -- Fiction; Russia -- Social life and customs -- 1533-1917 -- Fiction
smiled each time that it broke away from them, and smiled again. In the
beginning his Excellency had turned away, but now he threw me another
glance, and I heard him say to Evstafi Ivanovitch: “What on earth is the
matter with the fellow? Look at the figure he cuts! Who to God is he?”
Ah, beloved, only to hear that, “Who to God is he?” Truly I had made
myself a marked man! In reply to his Excellency Evstafi murmured: “He is
no one of any note, though his character is good. Besides, his salary is
sufficient as the scale goes.” “Very well, then; but help him out of his
difficulties somehow,” said his Excellency. “Give him a trifle of salary
in advance.” “It is all forestalled,” was the reply. “He drew it some
time ago. But his record is good. There is nothing against him.” At this
I felt as though I were in Hell fire. I could actually have died! “Well,
well,” said his Excellency, “let him copy out the document a second
time. Dievushkin, come here. You are to make another copy of this paper,
and to make it as quickly as possible.” With that he turned to some
other officials present, issued to them a few orders, and the company
dispersed. No sooner had they done so than his Excellency hurriedly
pulled out a pocket-book, took thence a note for a hundred roubles, and,
with the words, “Take this. It is as much as I can afford. Treat it as
you like,” placed the money in my hand! At this, dearest, I started and
trembled, for I was moved to my very soul. What next I did I hardly
know, except that I know that I seized his Excellency by the hand. But
he only grew very red, and then--no, I am not departing by a hair’s-
breadth from the truth--it is true--that he took this unworthy hand in
his, and shook it! Yes, he took this hand of mine in his, and shook it,
as though I had been his equal, as though I had been a general like
himself! “Go now,” he said. “This is all that I can do for you. Make no
further mistakes, and I will overlook your fault.”
What I think about it is this: I beg of you and of Thedora, and had
I any children I should beg of them also, to pray ever to God for his
Excellency. I should say to my children: “For your father you need not
pray; but for his Excellency, I bid you pray until your lives shall
end.” Yes, dear one--I tell you this in all solemnity, so hearken well
unto my words--that though, during these cruel days of our adversity,
I have nearly died of distress of soul at the sight of you and your
poverty, as well as at the sight of myself and my abasement and
helplessness, I yet care less for the hundred roubles which his
Excellency has given me than for the fact that he was good enough to
take the hand of a wretched drunkard in his own and press it. By that
act he restored me to myself. By that act he revived my courage, he made
life forever sweet to me.... Yes, sure am I that, sinner though I be
before the Almighty, my prayers for the happiness and prosperity of his
Excellency will yet ascend to the Heavenly Throne!...
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