Pray You, Sir, Whose Daughter?Gardener, Helen H. (Helen Hamilton)
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Pray You, Sir, Whose Daughter?
Gardener, Helen H. (Helen Hamilton)
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"Do you suppose I did not know about the Spillini family? About the
thousands of Spillini families? Do you suppose I did not know that the
rent of ten such families--their whole earnings for a year--would be
spent on--on a pretty inlaid prayer-book like this?" She tapped the
jeweled cross and turned it over on her lap. The girl's eyes were wide
and almost fear-filled as she studied her handsome care-free mother in
her new mood.
"Did you really suppose I did not know that this gem on the top of the
cross is dyed with the life-blood of some poor wretch, and that this one
represents the price of the honor of a starving girl?" She shivered, and
the girl drew back. "Did you fancy me as ignorant and as--happy--as
I have talked? Don't you know that it is the sole duty of a well-bred
woman to be ignorant--and happy? Otherwise she is morbid!" She
pronounced the word affectedly, and then laughed a bitter little laugh.
"Don't, mamma," said the girl, again. "I quite understand now, quite--"
She laid her head on her mother's bosom and was silent. Presently she
felt a tear drop on her hair. She put her hand up to her mother's cheek
and stroked it.
"The game went against you, didn't it, mamma?" she said softly. "And you
were not to blame." She felt a little shiver run over her mother's frame
and a sob crushed back bravely that hurt her like a knife. Presently two
hands lifted the girl's face.
"You don't despise me, daughter? In my position the price of a woman's
peace is the price of her own self-respect. I did not lose the game. I
gave it up!"
Gertrude kissed her on eyes and lips. "Poor mamma, poor mamma," she said
softly, "I wonder if I shall do the same!" For the first time since she
entered the room, the daughter appeared to appeal for, rather than to
offer, sympathy and strength. Her mother was quick to respond.
"If you never learn to love anyone very much, daughter, you may hope
to keep your self-respect. If you do you will sell it all--for his.
And--and--"
"Lose both at last?" asked the girl, hoarsely. Katherine Foster closed
her eyes for a moment to shut out her daughter's face.
"Will you ever have had his?" she asked, with her eyes still closed.
"Do men ever truly respect their dupes or their inferiors? Do you truly
respect anyone to whom you are willing to deny truth, honor, dignity?
Is it respect, or only a tender, pitying love we offer an intellectual
cripple--one whose mental life we know to be, and desire to keep,
distinctly below our own? Do--" She opened her eyes and they rested on
an onyx clock. She laughed. "Come, daughter," she said, "it is time to
dress for the Historical Club's annual dinner. You know I am one of the
guests of honor to-day. They honor me so truly that I am not permitted
to join the club or be ranked as a useful member at all. My work they
accept--flatter me by praising in a lofty way; but I can have no status
with them as an historian--I am a woman!"
Gertrude sprang to her feet. Her eyes flashed fire.
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