Pray You, Sir, Whose Daughter?Gardener, Helen H. (Helen Hamilton)
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Pray You, Sir, Whose Daughter?
Gardener, Helen H. (Helen Hamilton)
Fiction
"He lost his grip, somehow," said Avery, "and went from one disaster
into another. First he lost his place, and the little salary they had to
live on was stopped. It was no fault of his. It had been in due course
of a business change in the firm he worked for. He got another, but not
so good a situation, but the little debts that had run up while he was
idle were a constant drag on him. He never seemed able to catch up. Then
his wife's health failed. She needed a change of climate, rare and
delicate food, a quiet mind relieved of anxiety, but he could not give
her these. His own nerves gave way under the strain, and at last
sickness overtook him, and he had to appeal to me for a loan."
It was the letter which his friend had written when in that desperate
frame of mind, which Avery read to Gertrude the day they had discussed
the novel together. It was a strange, desperate letter, and it had
greatly stirred Gertrude. One passage in it had rather shocked her. It
was this: "When a fellow is young, and knows little enough of life to
accept the fictions of fiction as guides, he talks or thinks about it
as 'love in a cottage.' After he has tried it a while, and suffered in
heart and soul _because_ of his love of those whom he must see day
after day handicapped in mind and wrecked in body for the need of larger
means, he begins to speak of it mournfully as 'poverty with love' But
when that awful day comes, when sickness or misfortune develops before
his helpless gaze all the horrors of dependence and agony of mind that
the future outlook shows him, then it is that the fitting description
comes, and he feels like painting above the door he dreads to
enter--'hell at home.' Without the love there would be no home; without
the poverty no hell. Neither lightens the burdens of the other. Each
multiplies all that is terrible in both."
Gertrude had listened to the letter with a sad heart. When she did not
speak, Avery felt that he should modify some of its terms if he would be
fair to his absent acquaintance.
"Of course he would have worded it a little differently if he had known
that any one else would read it. He was desperate. He had gone through
such a succession of disasters. If anything was going to fall it seemed
as if he was sure to be under it, so I don't much wonder at his language
after--"
"I don't wonder at it at all," said Gertrude, looking steadily into the
fire. "What seems wonderful, is the facts which his words portray. I can
see that they are facts; but what I cannot see is--is--"
"How he could express them so raspingly--so--?" began Avery, but she
turned to him quite frankly surprised.
"Oh, no! Not that. But how can it be right that it should be so? And if
it is not right, why do not you men who have the power, do something to
straighten things out? Is this sort of suffering absolutely _necessary_
in the world?"
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