“All that you say is the truth, Marsa; but I will give my life, my whole
life, to expiate that lie!”
“There are infamies which are never effaced. There is no pardon for him
who has no excuse.”
“No excuse? Yes, Marsa; I have one! I have one: I loved you!”
“And because you loved me, was it necessary for you to betray me, lie to
me, ruin me?”
“What could I do? I did not love the woman I had married; you dawned on
me like a beautiful vision; I wished, hoping I know not what impossible
future, to be near you, to make you love me, and I did not dare to
confess that I was not free. If I lied to you, it was because I trembled
at not being able to surround you with my devotion; it was because I was
afraid to lose your love, knowing that the adoration I had for you would
never die till my heart was cold and dead! Upon all that is most sacred,
I swear this to you! I swear it!”
He then recalled to her, while she sat rigid and motionless with an
expression of contempt and disdain upon her beautiful, proud lips, their
first meetings; that evening at Lady Brolway’s, in Pau, where he had met
her for the first time; their conversation; the ineffaceable impression
produced upon him by her beauty; that winter season; the walks they had
taken together beneath the trees, which not a breath of wind stirred;
their excursions in the purple and gold valleys, with the Pyrenees in
the distance crowned with eternal snow. Did she not remember their long
talks upon the terrace, the evenings which felt like spring, and that
day when she had been nearly killed by a runaway horse, and he had
seized the animal by the bridle and saved her life? Yes, he had loved
her, loved her well; and it was because, possessing her love, he feared,
like a second Adam, to see himself driven out of paradise, that he had
hidden from Marsa the truth. If she had questioned one of the Hungarians
or Viennese, who were living at Pau, she could doubtless have known that
Count Menko, the first secretary of the embassy of Austria-Hungary at
Paris, had married the heiress of one of the richest families of Prague;
a pretty but unintelligent girl, not understanding at all the character
of her husband; detesting Vienna and Paris, and gradually exacting from
Menko that he should live at Prague, near her family, whose ancient
ideas and prejudices and inordinate love of money displeased the
young Hungarian. He was left free to act as he pleased; his wife would
willingly give up a part of her dowry to regain her independence. It
was only just, she said insolently, that, having been mistaken as to the
tastes of the man she had married for reasons of convenience rather than
of inclination, she should pay for her stupidity. Pay! The word made
the blood mount to Menko’s face. If he had not been rich, as he was, he
would have hewn stone to gain his daily bread rather than touch a
penny of her money. He shook off the yoke the obstinate daughter of the
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