Problematic Characters: A NovelSpielhagen, Friedrich
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Problematic Characters: A Novel
Spielhagen, Friedrich
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Oswald had gone beyond the farm-yard. He came to the place in the road
where the scene between Bruno and the servant had taken place.
Involuntarily, almost, he stopped; the whole scene came back to his
mind; he saw the fair boy, angry and threatening, like a youthful god,
and the mean, frightened hind. He almost regretted having persuaded his
favorite to stay at home. He was so happy, so cheerful on this
beautiful morning, and it had become quite a habit with him to share
all his joys with the boy. "You wild, good, noble fellow," he said to
himself, "what are you doing in this world of womanish men? Are they
not afraid of you already now, when you are a mere boy; what will they
do when you grow up to be a man? All the world cries aloud, 'We want
men!' How can you ever expect to have men, when home and school and
life all unite to break the proud strength of youthful hearts in the
germ already? They take the bow and whittle away at it more and more,
and then they wonder if the delicate thing breaks suddenly in their
hands. Pygmies, who try to bind and fetter with a thousand slender
threads the giant whom a lucky accident has brought to their desert
island!"
Oswald was very near working himself into a most melancholy state of
mind; but the bright, clear morning did not let him indulge long in
dark night-thoughts. An image, the image of a beautiful woman, which
had remained last night, before sleep closed his eyes, clearly before
his soul, which had passed like a pleasant shadow through all his
dreams, and which this morning had hovered around him like the echo of
some charming melody, now came vividly before his mind's eye. He tried
in vain to banish it. Who has not experienced the persistency with
which the forms of persons who are often perfectly indifferent to us
will present themselves before us, with every detail, against our
earnest desire, whilst we cannot, by any effort of our own, conjure up
the picture of those who are dearest to our heart? Is it because we are
so rarely able to look upon these calmly and deliberately; or is it
because where heart speaks to heart, and soul mingles with soul, the
outward form is consumed as by a flash of lightning? Is it because the
mind, capable of seizing what is imperishable, eternal, has no need of
the mere perishable body? While Oswald was thinking only of Melitta,
and wished to think of nothing else, he saw continually before him the
baroness, Mademoiselle Marguerite, and a number of ladies of his
acquaintance; but the Amazon in the green riding-habit was forever
dissolving into capricious vapors. "Well, then, fare thee well, fair
vision!" cried the young man, and endeavored to lead his thoughts into
a new channel.
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