Proper pride : $b A novel. Volume 1 (of 3)Croker, B. M. (Bithia Mary)
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Proper pride : $b A novel. Volume 1 (of 3)
Croker, B. M. (Bithia Mary)
English fiction -- Irish authors
“And do you suppose that I will receive you then? Return to me
_now_--show, even at the eleventh hour, that you can trust me--I will
send in my papers and stay at home. I have interest, and it is not yet
too late. I will freely forgive and forget all you thought, all you
said. It shall be as though it had never been spoken.” He paused, and
looked at her eagerly. “I told you,” he proceeded still more earnestly,
“that I had done with you, that I had no desire to see you again, but
I found, on cool reflection, that I loved you far too dearly to give
you up without an effort at reconciliation. I have made _two_--once
in London and once now--but this, I declare to you solemnly, will be
the last. Come back to me, and trust me, my dearest,” he said, laying
his hand entreatingly on her arm. “Trust me only for a little time;
all will, all must come right. You will never again in all your life
have such an opportunity of showing your love, your confidence in me.
Do you think I would not stand by you in a similar case? You know I
would,” he added emphatically. “Come back to me, Alice,” he urged.
“No, I will not,” she replied doggedly leaning both elbows on the
railing of the pier and staring steadily out to sea.
“You will not?” he repeated, in a tone of bitter disappointment. “You
cannot mean it.” After an inward struggle with himself he continued as
before: “Think of what you are doing, Alice. You have broken up our
home and turned me adrift--taken your freedom and your own way. You are
sending me back to India, and God knows if I shall ever return.”
“You need not go,” she replied in a low voice, still looking out to
sea, as if addressing the ocean.
“Of course I must go!” he cried emphatically; “unless you wish to have
the open mouth of scandal busy with our names. If the world knows that
I am engaged in my country’s service it may leave you alone. But I
warn you that society looks coldly on a young and pretty woman living
apart from her husband, and rightly or wrongly, they almost always
throw the blame of the separation on _her_ shoulders. I know you have
been influenced by Miss Fane; I know you have. It was not my generous,
true-hearted Alice that spoke to me that night at Looton. You don’t
know how you pained me, how you nearly maddened me by some of the
things she put into your mouth--things my pure-minded girl-wife would
never have thought of herself. You could not seriously think that I
had another wife living, and that I had dared, nevertheless, to marry
you--an _orphan_, as you justly remarked, committed to my care! Think
of the shameful crime it would be! Look me full in the face, and tell
me candidly, truthfully, and of your own free will, whether you imagine
that I, Reginald Fairfax, could be guilty of such a thing?”
Alice turned round at once and confronted him--his face pale with
emotion. His dark, miserable eyes haunted her painfully afterwards for
many and many a day.
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