As regards Mrs. Ray herself, I think it was well that poor Mr. Prime
had died. It assured to her the support which she needed. It must,
however, be acknowledged that Mrs. Prime was a harder taskmaster than
Dorothea Ray had been, and that the mother might have undergone a
gentler ruling had the daughter never become a wife. I think there
was much in the hardness of the weeds she wore. It seemed as though
Mrs. Prime in selecting her crape, her bombazine, and the models of
her caps, had resolved to repress all ideas of feminine softness;--as
though she had sworn to herself, with a great oath, that man should
never again look on her with gratified eyes. The materials she
wore have made other widows very pleasant to be seen,--with a sad
thoughtful pleasantness indeed, but still very pleasant. There was
nothing of that with Mrs. Prime. When she came back to her mother's
cottage near Baslehurst she was not yet twenty years old, but she was
rough with weeds. Her caps were lumpy, heavy, full of woe, and clean
only as decency might require,--not nicely clean with feminine care.
The very stuff of which they were made was brown, rather than white,
and her dress was always the same. It was rough, and black, and
clinging,--disagreeable to the eye in its shape, as will always be
the dress of any woman which is worn day after day through all hours.
By nature and education Mrs. Prime was a prim, tidy woman, but it
seemed that her peculiar ideas of duty required her to militate
against her nature and education, at any rate in appearance. And this
was her lot in life before she had yet reached her twentieth year!
Dorothea Ray had not been wanting in some feminine attraction.
She had ever been brown and homely, but her features had been
well-formed, and her eyes had been bright. Now, as she approached to
thirty years of age, she might have been as well-looking as at any
earlier period of her life if it had been her wish to possess good
looks. But she had had no such wish. On the contrary, her desire had
been to be ugly, forbidding, unattractive, almost repulsive; so that,
in very truth, she might be known to be a widow indeed. And here
I must not be misunderstood. There was nothing hypocritical about
Mrs. Prime, nor did she make any attempt to appear before men to
be weighted with a deeper sorrow than that which she truly bore;
hypocrisy was by no means her fault. Her fault was this; that she had
taught herself to believe that cheerfulness was a sin, and that the
more she became morose, the nearer would she be to the fruition of
those hopes of future happiness on which her heart was set. In all
her words and thoughts she was genuine; but, then, in so very many of
them she was mistaken! This was the wall against which Mrs. Ray had
allowed herself to be fastened for many years past, and though the
support was strong it must be admitted that it could hardly have been
at all times pleasant.
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