Canadian fiction -- 20th century; Detective and mystery stories
There they sat side by side on the big sofa in the seductive half light
of the great room--but something was the matter. They made no
progress. Perhaps having desired this moment so much, the realization
of it frightened them. With too much feeling they were dumb; and they
did not know each other well enough to be comfortably silent together.
So each made various attempts to start something which only resulted in
utter banality. They found themselves talking as primly as a couple in
an old-fashioned romance. The sources of laughter were frozen up. And
the more self-conscious they became, the stiffer grew their tongues.
It was chiefly Pen's fault. She got the notion in her head that he
merely desired to repay her hospitality with a little gallantry, and
she blighted his warm overtures as with a frost. It was due to her
fatal instinct to guard against a pain which might be more than she
could bear.
However the young man was determined; moreover he had a reputation to
keep up. More experienced than Pen he had learned how a little
naturalness clears the air, and he was resolved to speak his mind no
matter how hard she made it for him. In the end he blurted it out
awkwardly:
"Why shouldn't I tell you? ... a fellow like me ... knocking about ...
making a joke of everything ... you get the notion girls are charming
useless creatures you've got to put up with because they're so charming
... And lots of them are useless without even being charming ... Makes
a man cynical ... And then to meet one more charming than any and
_useful_! ... Oh, I express myself rottenly! ... Well, it gives you a
jolt. You've got to rearrange all your ideas..."
This was simply more than Pen could bear. She insisted to herself that
it was simply gallantry on his part. Gallantry is part of the Maryland
tradition. She laughed in a way that dried him up, and made him turn a
dull red.
"Thanks for useful," she said.
The sullen, hurt glance he bent on her seemed to say: "You're charming
but you're very prickly!"
That put the finish to their conservation. To the outward view they
presented the spectacle of two normal young people slightly bored with
each other and exchanging perfunctory remarks, but in reality each was
suffering keenly. They couldn't make it go. Pendleton returned to the
dining-room where they could hear him rattling the newspaper, and they
were even ready to wish that he would come in and separate them in
their unhappiness. Finally Counsell got the idea that Pen wished to be
rid of him. After all he'd been hanging about the place all day. He
rose to go.
Pen's heart said: "This is the end!" But her face only showed a polite
and wistful blank. She said quietly:
"You'll be moving on to-morrow, I suppose."
"I suppose so," he said sullenly.
Pen greatly wished to say: "Well don't forget us," or something of the
sort, light and friendly, but she could not get the words out.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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