As he waited for this chance to come he watched her, noting her every
movement, her troubled smile, her air of being apart and above her
surroundings. He noticed, too, the set face of the young man at her side
and, with the discernment of one whose own interest is captive, saw the
half-concealed longing in his eyes. He felt a quick antipathy to this
young man. His assured position at the girl's side accentuated how far
he himself was removed from her; he resented also the manner of the
young man to the waiters, and he wondered hotly if, in the mind of
this favored youth, the musician who played for his entertainment was
regarded any more highly than the servant who received his orders. To
this feeling of resentment was added one of contempt. For, as he read
the tableau at the table below him, the young man was the devotee of the
young girl at his side, and if one could judge from her averted eyes,
from her silent assent to his questions, from the fact that she withdrew
from the talk between him and the older woman, his devotion was not
welcome.
This reading of the pantomime pleased Edouard greatly. Nothing could
have so crowned the feeling which the beauty of the stranger stirred in
him as the thought that another loved her as well as himself, and that
the other, who started with all things in his favor, met with none from
her.
Edouard assured himself that this was so because he had often heard his
people boast that men not of their country could not feel as they could
feel. If he had ever considered them at all it was as cold and conscious
creatures who taught themselves to cover up what they felt, so that when
their emotions strove to assert themselves they were found, through long
disuse, to be dumb and inarticulate. Edouard rejoiced that to the men of
his race it was given to feel and suffer much. He was sure that beneath
the calmness of her beauty this woman before him could feel deeply; he
read in her eyes the sympathy of a great soul; she made him think of a
Madonna in the church of St. Sophia at Budapest. He saw in her a woman
who could love greatly. When he considered how impossible it was for the
young man at her side ever to experience the great emotions which alone
could reach her, his contempt for him rose almost to pity. His violin,
with his power to feel, and with his knowledge of technic added, could
send his message as far as sound could carry. He could afford to be
generous, and when he rose to play La Lettre d'Amour it was with the
elation of a knight entering the lists, with the ardor of a lover
singing beneath his lady's window. La Lettre d'Amour is a composition
written to a slow measure, and filled with chords of exquisite pathos.
It comes hesitatingly, like the confession of a lover who loves so
deeply that he halts to find words with which to express his feelings.
It moves in broken phrases, each note rising in intensity and growing
in beauty. It is not a burst of passionate appeal, but a plea, tender,
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