Home! what solace is there in its very sound! Oh, how that blessed
asylum for the wounded spirit encloses within its sacred circle all that
is comforting, and sweet, and holy! 'Tis there that the soul coils
itself up and nestles like the dove in its own downiness, conscious that
everything around breathes of peace, security, and love. Home!
henceforward, I was to have none, until, through many, many years of
toil and misery, I should create one for myself. Henceforth, the word
must bring to me only the bitterness of regret--henceforth I was to
associate with hundreds who had that temple in which to consecrate their
household affections--but was, myself, doomed to be unowned, unloved,
and homeless.
"I want to go home," I blubbered forth with the pertinacity of anguish,
as I was constrained into the parlour of the truculent, rod-bearing,
ferula-wielding Mr Root. I must have been a strange figure. I was
taken from my nurse's in a hurry, and, though my clothes were quite new,
my face entitled me to rank among the much vituperated unwashed. When a
little boy has very dirty hands, with which he rubs his dirty, tearful
face, it must be confessed that grief does not, in his person, appear
under a very lovely form. The first impression that I made on him who
was to hold almost everything that could constitute my happiness in his
power, was the very reverse of, favourable. My continued iteration of
"I want to go home," was anything but pleasing to the pedagogue. The
sentence itself is not music to a man keeping a boarding-school. With
the intuitive perception of childhood, through my tears, my heart
acknowledged an enemy. What my conductor said to him, did not tend to
soften his feelings towards me. I did not understand the details of his
communication, but I knew that I was as a captive, bound hand and foot,
and delivered over to a foreign bondage. The interview between the
contracting parties was short, and when over, my conductor departed
without deigning to bestow the smallest notice upon the most important
personage of this history. I was then rather twitched by the hand, than
led, by Mr Root, into the middle of his capacious school-room, and in
the midst of more than two hundred and fifty boys: my name was merely
mentioned to one of the junior ushers, and the master left me. Well
might I then apply that blundering, Examiner-be-praised line of Keats to
myself, for like Ruth:--
"I stood all tears among the alien corn."
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