Recollections of a chaperonSullivan, Arabella Jane
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Recollections of a chaperon
Sullivan, Arabella Jane
English fiction -- 19th century
One day the child was playing on Lord Montreville’s sofa, when he
beckoned her to sit there likewise. He passed his fingers through
the curls of the boy’s fair hair, and looking at him with tenderness
remarked, “I never knew before what engaging creatures children were!
that clear white forehead, and those blue eyes, with such shady
eyelashes, are just like yours, Lucy, and I do not love him the less
for that.”
She thought how delightful such expressions would have been to her,
could she have trusted them, and yet she felt almost guilty at
receiving them so coldly. He passed his arm round her waist as he
spoke. She dared not repel the caress, but she burst into tears, and
suddenly rising, she said, “I must not be so foolish and nervous. I
believe I want a little fresh air, for I have not been out these two
days. I will go and take a turn in the park this lovely evening.”
She hastened to quit the room, leaving Lord Montreville surprised, and
yet pleased, for he could not attribute this agitation to any cause
except love for himself.
She sought the most retired part of the park. The sun was getting low,
and lighted up the grey rough boles of the old oaks, while the slant
beams tipped every object in the landscape with gold, and increased
the rich variety of foliage, of form, and of colouring. The distant
mountains were purple, the nearer ones adorned with every hue and tint,
which blended most softly into the other. The young fawns were skipping
and sporting on the smooth glades, between the tufts of trees, while
the belling of the deer among the fern mingled with the hum of bees,
the chirp of birds, and the summer sounds of evening.
She gazed around and thought, “How lovely, how beautiful is nature!
How calm and cheerful every thing looks! It is more painful to feel
unhappy while every thing seems so gay around one, than if all was as
dreary and desolate as one’s own heart. Oh! how I do long to be happy!”
and she began to think that perhaps she tormented herself foolishly;
that there might be some excuse for her husband, of which she was not
aware; that it was impossible any one could seem so affectionate as
Lord Montreville, without feeling what he showed: she yielded to the
genial influence of the scene around her, and vaguely hoped that all
would yet come right.
“He will soon be well enough to read his letters,” she thought, “and
as I am sure he is very fond of me now, whatever he may have been
hitherto, he will be miserable when he finds the letter from that
shocking woman; and he will be humble and penitent, and tell me the
whole truth, and then I will forgive him, and then he must love me a
great deal better than ever, for being so very kind.”
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