Recollections of a chaperonSullivan, Arabella Jane
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Recollections of a chaperon
Sullivan, Arabella Jane
English fiction -- 19th century
“Oh, my lady, depend upon it, a good conscience is all in all. If any
body has every blessing this world can afford, it is of no use, as long
as their conscience tells them they have not done what is right; and if
it so happens that they are in trouble, why a good conscience is the
only happiness they have left. It is not balls, nor plays, nor such
like, that can cure trouble. I beg your pardon, my lady, for talking so
to you; but, indeed, I do believe that if God sees any of us poor frail
creatures fighting against our sorrow with a pious heart, He will help
us to bear up against it, and we shall feel something nearer happiness
than we ever shall by amusing ourselves with the pleasures of the
world. I am sure I ought to be ashamed to speak so to a lady like you;
but I am an old woman, and I love you, Miss Lucy; I love you as if you
were my own child!”
“Dear Milly, you are my only comfort, and I do not know what would
become of me if I had not you, to whom I could open my heart. You are
quite right, and I am sure I would not do any thing wrong that I know
of.”
“I am sure you would not, my lady; but I have sometimes thought of
what you once said to me before ever you was married, about gentlemen
talking to ladies, and ladies being talked of. I did not rightly
understand you at the time.”
“What can you mean, Milly?”
“Why, my lady, I scarce know how to tell you; but since you have let me
make so bold as to speak to you, I did hear some of the servants——”
“The servants, Milly! what on earth could the servants say?”
“Why servants will talk, my lady, and there’s no use in thinking of
hindering them; and the truth is, I heard John say to Thomas, ‘So my
lady has taken up with a lover at last!’”
“Impossible! Milly.”
“Yes, my lady, it is true enough; and Thomas made answer, ‘I thought
how ’twould be—many ladies makes a show of being better than their
neighbours at first, but they all will run their rig.’”
“Oh, horrid! horrid! But they did not mention any name?”
“Why, yes, they did indeed; for John answered, ‘He supposed my lord
would not mind it, as ’twas all in the family.’ ‘Not mind it?’ says
Thomas; ‘It’s my belief my lord will kick Mr. Delville out of the house
one of these fine days.’”
“Stop! stop! Milly, I cannot bear to hear another word. Oh that I
should live to be so spoken of by my own servants! I cannot bear it! I
will turn them all away, the impertinent wretches!”
“’Tis shocking, to be sure; but them London footmen, they stick at
nothing. And servants will talk, my lady! there’s no help for it—they
will talk, if there is any thing to talk about.”
“But there is nothing to talk about. Oh! what shall I do? What shall I
do? If I change suddenly, and break off with Lord Montreville’s cousin,
it will seem so odd; it will justify these dreadful suspicions; and
besides, he is the only person whose society is the least agreeable to
me.”
“Oh, la! my lady! Then I am sure it is time you should not have so much
of his company.”
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