Recollections of a chaperonSullivan, Arabella Jane
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Recollections of a chaperon
Sullivan, Arabella Jane
English fiction -- 19th century
“Your hesitation confirms me in my opinion, and now I recall to mind
(as she spoke, her heart beat almost audibly, and the eloquent blood
mantled her very brows, at the outrage she forced herself to inflict
upon her maiden modesty), that some weeks ago, long before this present
business occupied your thoughts, when I asked you if you were ill, you
replied, that you were ‘ill in mind, and harassed, because you could
not determine to pursue a certain line of conduct you were anxious to
adopt, lest in the attempt to acquire your own individual happiness,
which you confessed to be at stake, you should injure another
person;’—perhaps you are still undecided?”
Again she paused, but not as before, overpowered by the struggle within
her breast. The Rubicon was passed, and—she sat before Warenne, calm
and pale, with her head proudly thrown back, and her dark eye glancing
with the consciousness of single-minded innocence, as though she dared
the world to look into her heart, or question its purity.
He turned a wondering and admiring gaze upon the beautiful being who
thus questioned him, as it were with authority, and answered slowly,
“No, I have no indecision now to torture me; my path is clear before
me, and a joyless one it is.”
“I had guessed as much,” resumed Adelaide, “from your compressed lips,
and sterner manner, even had you not acknowledged it. Am I equally
right in my further surmise that you have decided against yourself,
and that, not because you are convinced of its being your duty so to
do under the circumstances of the case, but because the circumstances
themselves have changed—because, though the benefit to yourself, in the
world’s opinion at least, may be greater, you consider that you have
less right to ask it of the person?”
Warenne interposed. “Miss Marston, you cannot know—you cannot
understand—yet you assuredly speak the truth.”
Adelaide continued. “Have you forgotten your conversation with me
the last time we met? Might not that help me to read the riddle of
your thoughts? and now (a deep blush again resuming the empire of her
cheek, as she in a clear low tone, but with rapid utterance, made the
demand)—that person, is it not myself?—that purpose, was it not to ask
my hand?”
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