Recollections of a chaperonSullivan, Arabella Jane
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Recollections of a chaperon
Sullivan, Arabella Jane
English fiction -- 19th century
When, therefore, Lord Ellersville proposed to her, and was considered
by her parents as an unexceptionable _parti_, young, handsome, rich,
she accepted him calmly, dutifully, and without hesitation. She
meant to love him, knowing it was right so to do, and she persuaded
herself that she really did like him very much. In high life, romance
is not the besetting sin of very young ladies. Their characters do
not unfold, like Ondine; they do not find out they have a soul until
it is sometimes too late. Matches, apparently the most worldly and
heartless, are occasionally formed by those, in the recesses of whose
hearts the warmest affections, the most disinterested feelings, are
lying dormant. Often, very often, their minds are well regulated, their
principles strong, and these affections, if they cannot find vent in
love for their husbands, concentrate themselves on their children. But
alas! too often also they lead to the most lamentable results.
Lord Ellersville unfortunately was not formed to attach such a woman
as Maria. He was devoted to field sports. In August he repaired to the
moors to shoot grouse, from whence he only returned when partridge
shooting commenced, and later in the season he went to Melton with a
perfect stud of horses. This was not flattering to a young and lovely
woman. Her vanity was mortified. In the spring he attended the House of
Lords regularly, although he never spoke, and his vote merely served to
strengthen the government majorities. Women are alive to fame of all
kinds, and if her husband had distinguished himself, Lady Ellersville
was one of those who would have lived upon his glories; for there was
a fund of loftiness in her nature which would have enabled her to make
pride in her husband supply the place of love for him. When with her,
he was careless and indifferent; for having married at the instigation
of his mother, in order that the honours of Ellersville might not
become extinct, her principal claim upon his affection, or rather his
consideration, ceased, when the young heir was snatched by death from
its doting mother.
There is something in maternity that opens the heart to all kindly
emotions of every sort, and it was not till she lost her child, that
Lady Ellersville first felt what a blank and cheerless existence was
that of the unloved wife of an unloved husband. She then first owned to
herself that she did not, could not, love the man to whom her fate was
united, but that there did exist within her warm and ardent feelings
which now must never be called forth.
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