Recollections of a chaperonSullivan, Arabella Jane
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Recollections of a chaperon
Sullivan, Arabella Jane
English fiction -- 19th century
With what unutterable anguish did she write that name! For some minutes
she held the pen suspended before she summoned courage to trace the
dreaded characters. Yet why, when her whole letter avowed herself his
wife, why fear to write the word? She forced herself to do so; but as
she wrote, she felt guilty towards Algernon. She had been so completely
in the habit of doing every thing with reference to him, of being
guided by him, of acting as if his eye was always upon her, that she
thought what would be his emotions, if he saw her thus deliberately
deny him! Yet this was indeed her name, and if she avoided it, she
might irritate him who was in very truth her husband; him, who had a
right at any moment to tear her children from her! She would no longer
hesitate—she would not give herself the opportunity of altering the
signature; she sealed the letter, she directed it, she enclosed it to
her brother, and when all was done, she felt her separation from him
she loved more complete than ever. A gush of tenderness came over her
soul. If Algernon had at that moment been at her feet, there is no
knowing whether she might not have consented to fly with him to the
wilds of America, or to any spot on earth where human institutions
could not reach.
When Algernon arrived at Belhanger, a few days after Ellen’s departure,
he lost no time in sending little Agnes to rejoin her mother. He
thought the presence of her child,—his child,—might afford her the
sensation nearest approaching to pleasure of any thing she was now
capable of experiencing. It was not without many a bitter pang that he
brought himself to part from the only object that remained to him, of
all that a few short weeks ago had made him the happiest man alive.
But, in addition to his anxiety to lessen by any means within his
power the bitterness of her fate, it is possible that a lingering hope
mingled itself, that she could not refuse to let him occasionally see
his child, and that he might perhaps thus obtain an interview with
herself.
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