Recollections of the eventful life of a soldier — John Shaqi
Recollections of the eventful life of a soldierDonaldson, Joseph
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Recollections of the eventful life of a soldier
Donaldson, Joseph
Peninsular War, 1807-1814 -- Personal narratives
Between the liquor we had drunk, and what we had heard and seen, we
were in high spirits, and went out to perambulate the town; but,
going up the main street, towards the head inn, I met my father
full in the face. He had just arrived from Glasgow in search of us.
I thought I would have sunk into the earth. Confounded and ashamed,
I stood like a felon caught in some depredation. Tom ran off, and
left William and I to manage affairs as we could. My father was the
first who broke silence.— ‘Well, Joseph,’ said he, ‘will you tell
me the meaning of this jaunt you have taken? But I am going to Mr
C——’s, and you had better come with me, and we shall talk over the
matter there.’ We followed him without saying a word, and when we
were seated in Mr C——’s, he again asked my motive for leaving home.
I looked in William’s face, and saw he was determined. I then said
we were resolved on going to sea, and that we had come to Greenock
for that purpose. Mr C. and my father said every thing they could to
dissuade us from our foolish resolution, but to little purpose. The
idea of the ridicule we would have to bear from our acquaintance if
we returned, and Tom’s exaggerated description of the pleasures of a
sea life, had confirmed us in our determination.
‘Well,’ said my father (after he had reasoned the matter with me, and
painted what a sailor’s life was in reality, with little effect,) ‘I
might exert the right I have over you, as a parent, in forcing you
to return, but I will not. If you have so far forgot your duty to
me, and to yourself, after all that I have done for you, as to throw
yourself away as a common ship-boy, where you can have no opportunity
of learning any thing but wickedness, you may do it, but remember my
words—_you will repent it_, when you will perhaps have no father to
question the propriety of your conduct. Indeed, after the dishonest
action you have been guilty of at home, I don’t know but your
presence would be more disagreeable to me than your absence, unless
you altered much for the better; and if I have any very anxious wish
that you would return, it is more on your poor mother’s account than
my own. Oh, how could you leave us in the manner you did, without a
cause?—The first night you were absent from home, your mother was
frantic. She wandered from place to place in search of you—and was
sure you were not in life—that some accident had befallen you. When
she knows the truth, how cruel must she think you?—O! Joseph, after
all our care and attention, I am afraid you will bring down our gray
hairs with sorrow to the grave.’
Here the tears came into my father’s eyes, and his voice became
choked. I could bear it no longer, and burst into tears. My first
impulse was to throw myself at his feet, and beg forgiveness; but the
obstacles which were in the way of my return before, again recurring
to my mind, prevented me, and I only wept in sullen silence.
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