Recollections of the eventful life of a soldierDonaldson, Joseph
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Recollections of the eventful life of a soldier
Donaldson, Joseph
Peninsular War, 1807-1814 -- Personal narratives
I was born in Glasgow: my father held a situation in a mercantile
house, that enabled him to keep his family respectable. I was the
only surviving child, and no expense would have been spared on my
education, had I been wise enough to appreciate the value of it; but,
unfortunately for me, that was not the case. I had early learned to
read; but novels, romances, and fairy tales, were my favourite books,
and soon superseded all other kinds of reading. By this means, my
ideas of life were warped from reality, and the world I had pictured
in my imagination was very unlike the one in which I lived. The
sober realities of life became tiresome and tasteless. Still panting
after something unattainable, I became displeased with my situation
in life, and neglected my education—not because I disliked it; on
the contrary, I was fond of learning, and used to form very feasible
plans of study, wherein I omitted nothing that was necessary to form
the accomplished gentleman. I could pleasingly, in imagination, skim
over the whole course of literature, and contemplate my future fame
and wealth as the result; but when I considered how many years of
arduous application would be required, I was too impatient to put it
into practice. I had required too great a facility in raising castles
in the air, and embellishing them with my fancy, to submit to the
drudgery of building on a more stable foundation. Thus, straining at
shadows, I lost substantial good.
Amongst other books which fell into my hands, when very young, was
Robinson Crusoe. It was a great favourite; and at that time, I
believe I would willingly have suffered shipwreck, to be cast on
an island like his. An island to one’s self, I thought, what a
happiness! and I have dreamed for hours together, on what I would do
in such a situation. I have often played truant to wander into the
fields, and read my favourite books; and, when I was not reading, my
mind was perfectly bewildered with the romantic notions I had formed.
Often have I travelled eagerly to the summit of some neighbouring
hill, where the clouds seemed to mark the limits of the world I lived
in, my mind filled with an indescribable expectation that I would
there meet with something to realise my wild ideas, some enchanted
scene or other; and when I reached its summit, and found those
expectations disappointed, still the next similar place had the same
attraction. The sky, with the ever-varying figures of the clouds, was
an inexhaustible field for my imagination to work in; and the sea,
particularly those views of it where the land could not be seen from
the shore, raised indescribable feelings in my breast. The vessels
leaving the coast, thought I, must contain happy souls; for they
are going far away,—all my fancied happy worlds were there. Oh, I
thought, if I could once pass that blue line that separates the ocean
and the sky!—then should I be content; for it seems the only barrier
between me and happiness.
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