"I have no claim upon you," he answers, icily.
"What do you mean?" she cries, passionately. "You are unjust. There
could be nothing too bad for _him_ to say of me, but what injury have
I done you? You ought to thank me and praise me for having been wicked
and dishonourable and double-dealing for your sake."
"For my sake!" he repeats, with a sardonic smile. "I am hardly so
conceited as to take it personally."
"What do you mean?" she asks, quickly. "If I did not do it for your
sake, for whose did I?"
He is silent.
"Do you mean," she inquires, slowly, her cheeks paling to the whiteness
of snowdrops blowing, "that you think I gave him up because I wanted
to be a grand lady--because I wanted to have all these fine things"
(looking round at the flowering gardens, at the broad lake, at the
stately house shimmering in the moonshine) "belonging to me?"
Still he holds his peace.
"Is that what you meant?" she repeats, urgently.
"I meant," he says, looking up, his eyes flashing with a hard, metallic
gleam, "that you thought a rich man a better investment than a poor
one, and, being equally and conveniently indifferent to both, you
thought it wisest to select the former."
"If such is your opinion of me," she says, turning away indignantly, "I
don't wonder at your being in such a hurry to be rid of me!"
He looks askance at her out of the corners of his eyes. She has hidden
her face in her hands, but by the panting breast and heaved white
shoulder he sees that she is weeping--that a storm of sobs is shaking
her childish frame.
"I am in a hurry to be rid of you!" he says, harshly, steeling himself
against her. "From a woman who could throw a man over with the
deliberate, cold-blooded artlessness you have done, one may well sing
'Te Deum' for being rescued in time."
She flings up her little head proudly, and the dusk splendour of her
eyes blazes through great tears. "Listen to me!" she says, laying hold
of his arm with one small burning hand. "I am a bad girl, I know, but
I am not the calculating, mercenary wretch you take me for. I tell you
honestly that the first day I came here--I had never been staying at
a great house before--I thought it must be pleasant to live in large
rooms, and have gilt and ormolu and fine pictures about one, and to
have carriages and horses and servants, and not to be obliged to think
twice before one spent sixpence; and I thought, too" (her long neck
droops, and she blushes painfully as she makes the confession), "what
a pity it was that I was already engaged, for that otherwise, as I was
pretty, you might have taken a fancy to me----" She stops, choked with
maiden shame. Upon his averted face an enduring flush, like a hectic
autumn leaf's, burns red and angry.
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