With how few pen-strokes can a death-warrant be written! For a moment
she sits bolt upright, void of breath or motion, as a white dead
woman, from the house of whose fair body the spirit departed an hour
ago; the telegram grasped in a stiff hand that knows not of it. Then
consciousness returns, brought back by a huge, tearing, killing agony;
then even the agony yields to one intense, consuming longing--one
all-dominating purpose--the longing to slay time and space; to be with
him _now_, this instant; to be beside Jack dying, not Jack dead.
"Can I see Sir Thomas?" she asks collectedly, but in a rough, deep
voice. "I have had bad news from home: my brother is very ill."
"Indeed, 'm, you don't say so;" replies the servant, growing broadly
awake under the delightful excitement of a calamity having happened to
somebody, and of herself being the first recipient of the news.
"I _must_ see Sir Thomas!" Esther says, putting her hand up in a
bewildered way to her head, and then springing off the bed and walking
quickly towards the door.
"See Sir Thomas," repeats the woman, the most unfeigned alarm painting
itself on her broad face--"_now!_ Indeed, ma'am, you must be mad to
think of such a thing! It would be as much as all our places are worth
if he were to be disturbed before his usual time."
Esther turns and clutches her arm, while her great eyes brimful of
despair, burn on her face. "I tell you my brother is _dying!_" she
says, hoarsely--"I know he is; I must go to him _this minute;_ for
God's sake help me to get to the station!"
"Indeed, 'm, I'm sorry to see you in such trouble, _that_ I am!"
answers her companion, moved to compassion by the terrible, haggard
misery of the young, round face, that she, in company with her
fellow-servants, had often admired in its happy, dewy rosiness at
prayers on Sunday evenings; "but, you see, all the men are in bed, and
Simpson 'ud cut off his own 'ead afore he'd venture to take out the
carriage without Sir Thomas's orders."
The tall, yellow candle flares between them: lights up the tortured
beauty of the one woman, the placid stolidity of the other. Esther
groans, and smites her hands together.
"Is there _no_ vehicle I can have?" she asks in impatient agony--"no
cart?--no anything? I'd give all I have in the world to any one who
would take me. Oh God! how many minutes I am wasting."
The housemaid puts down her flat candlestick on the table, and rubs
her forehead with her rough fore-finger to aid her thinking powers.
"There's the dog-cart that the under-servants goes to church in," she
says, presently, with an uncertain suggestion: "if we could knock the
men up, you might have _it_, perhaps."
"Knock them up this instant, then!" cries Esther, with passionate
urgency--"_now, this minute!_ Go, for God's sake!"
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