Gerard still remains at Blessington--remains, despite the six-o'clock
dinners; despite the inarticulate and inharmonious mumblings with
which old Blessington takes away the appetites of such as feast with
him; despite the utter failure of his endeavours to draw from the mind
of his betrothed any ideas but such as _Le Follet_ and _Le Journal
des Demoiselles_ had just put into it. Latterly he has abandoned the
attempt, has taken to reading the _Times_, _Field_, anything in the
evening, instead; has even, in his despair--modern works of fiction
being, as I have before observed, unknown at Blessington--waded through
two chapters and a half of "Pamela," which Esther had inadvertently
left on the table. Sometimes, to his own surprise, he catches himself
wishing that his wedding-day were over. "When we are married, we need
never speak to one another," he reflects. "Thank God, we shall not be
so poor as to be obliged to keep together from economy; a dinner of
herbs and hatred, or, worse still, indifference therewith, _would_
be hard to digest; she may go her way, and I mine. I will get up a
great stock of beads, and looking-glasses, and red calico, and make an
expedition to Central Africa; learn some euphonious African tongue, all
made up of Ms and Ns; and carefully abstain from engaging in arguments
upon the immortality of the soul with intelligent natives."
Now and again conscience's voice thunders at him in the recesses of his
soul: "You are paltering with temptation. Arise!--flee!--begone!" But
he, strong in the innocence of his acts and words, replies doughtily:
"Temptation is there none for me here. The occupations of my life are
such as they would be at home; I am struggling to know and like better
her with whom my life is to be passed. As to that other woman, I see
her rarely, speak to her never, look at her as seldom as it is possible
to me."
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