His love for her, humble, triumphant, diffident, passionate, impatient
by turns, now exacting, now selfless, possessed him entirely. He
remembered once, with astonishment, that he was making a magnificent
match. He had never thought of it, as Rachel knew, as she knew well.
* * * * *
December came in bleak and dark. The snow did its poor best, laying day
after day its white veil upon the dismal streets. But it was
misunderstood. It was scraped into murky heaps. It melted and then
froze, and then melted again. And London groaned and shivered on its
daily round.
Every afternoon Hugh came, and every morning Rachel made her rooms
bright with flowers for him. The flower shop at the corner sent her tiny
trees of white lilac, and sweet little united families of hyacinths and
tulips. The time of azaleas was not yet. And once he sent her a bunch of
daffodils. He knew best how he had obtained them.
Their wild, sweet faces peered at Rachel, and she sat down faint and
dizzy, holding them in her nerveless hands. If one daffodil knows
anything, all daffodils know it to the third and fourth generation.
"Where is he?" they said. "That man whom you loved once? We were there
when he spoke to you. We saw you stand together by the attic window. We
never say, but we heard, we remember. And you cried for joy at night
afterwards. We never say. But we heard. We remember."
Rachel's secretary in the little room on the ground-floor was
interrupted by a tap at the door. Rachel came in laden with daffodils.
Their splendor filled the gray room.
"Would you mind having them?" she said, smiling, and laying them down by
her. "And would you kindly write a line to Jones telling him not to send
me daffodils again. They are a flower I particularly dislike."
* * * * *
"Rachel?"
"Hugh!"
"Don't you think it would be better if we were married immediately?"
"Better than what?"
"Oh, I don't know; better than breaking it off."
"You can't break it off now. I'm not a person to be trifled with. You
have gone too far."
"If you gave me half your attention, you would understand that I am only
expressing a wish to go a little further, but you have become so
frivolous since we have been engaged that I hardly recognize you."
"I suit myself to my company."
"Are you going to talk to me in that flippant manner when we are
married. I sometimes fear, Rachel, you don't look upon me with
sufficient awe. I foresee I shall have to be very firm when we are
married. When may I begin to be firm?"
"Are these such evil days, Hugh?"
"I am like Oliver Twist," he said. "I want more."
* * * * *
They were sitting together one afternoon in the fire-light in silence.
They often sat in silence together.
"A wise woman once advised me," said Rachel at last, "if I married,
never to tell my husband of any previous attachment. She said, Let him
always believe that he was the first
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