Lesbians -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Women teachers -- Fiction
But the big, adventurous handwriting was hatefully familiar. The
postcard was from Miss Durand.
She waited a moment, her lips parted vacantly, as was her fashion when
controlling emotion; waited till the maid had gone.
Then she crumpled and tore the thin cardboard in her hand and flung it
at last on the floor, in a passion of disappointment.
"She might have written!" cried Louise. "Oh, she might have written! It
wouldn't have hurt her--a postcard."
Presently a thought struck her. She groped under the table for the torn
scraps of paper and spread them in her lap, piecing them eagerly,
laboriously. Miss Hartill might have written on Miss Durand's postcard.
She had the oblong fitted together at last and read the scrawl with
impatient eagerness. Miss Durand was just sending her a line to wish her
all imaginable luck. She and Miss Hartill were having a glorious time.
They were sitting at that moment where she had made a cross on the
picture postcard. She wished Louise could be with them to see the
wonderful view over the valley and with good wishes from them both, was
her Alwynne Durand....
Louise's eyes softened--"from them both." That was something! Miss
Hartill had sent her a message. She sighed as she wrapped the scraps
carefully in her handkerchief. Life was queer.... Here was Miss Durand,
so kind, so friendly always--yet her kindness brought no pleasure....
And Miss Hartill, who could open heaven with a word--was not half so
kind as Miss Durand. Louise marvelled that Miss Hartill could be so
miserly. She was sure that if she, Louise, could make people utterly
happy by kind looks and kind words, stray messages and occasional
postcards, that she would be only too glad to be allowed to do it. To
possess the power of giving happiness.... And with no more trouble to
yourself than the writing of a postcard! Queer that Miss Hartill did not
realise what her mere existence meant to people.... She couldn't realise
it, of course ... that was it.... She thought so little about
herself.... It was her own beautiful selflessness that made her seem,
occasionally, hard--unkind even.... She didn't realise what she meant to
people.... If she had, she would have written.... Of course she would
have written ... just a word ... on Daffy's postcard....
Louise sighed again. One didn't ask much.... But it seemed the more
humble one grew--the less one asked--the more unlikely people were to
throw one even that little.... At any rate there was the examination to
tackle.... If she did well--! She lost herself again in speculations as
to the form Miss Hartill's approval might take.
The family trooped in to breakfast as the brisk maid dumped a steaming
dishful of liver and bacon upon the table.
Louise occupied her place and began to spread her bread-and-butter,
avoiding her father's eye. But, as she foresaw, she was not permitted to
escape.
Mr. Denny pounced upon the butter-dish.
"Not with bacon," he remarked, with reproachful satisfaction, and
removed it.
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